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i just want a boyfriend bro.
i want him to be cute and sciencey and mathy and techy and teach me all sorts of stuff is that like too much to ask??
but also like i'm unironically insane asf?? so there's that i guess
there's been rly good guys that check a lot of boxes on my standards but i just feel nothing towards them for some reason. idk. i hate that i do that but idk how to make myself love/be interested in someone. like they're cute?? sweet?? smart?? but i feel nothing??!?!??!
my creative imagination has deluded the shit out of me, i have this ideal version in my head and my (ironically, romantically deprived) pea brain can't handle the slightest deviation. i'm an awful dumb bitch who wants romance but denies any chance she gets because of fear or high expectations.
i'm literally not mean about my rejections either, i put the blame 100% on me and all of the guys absolutely know they did nothing wrong i'm just a loner asshole.
and the guys i actually do romantically like (totaling about 5 in my entire lifetime) were either just not a great fit in the long run or total douchebags who still make fun of me for liking them till this day (info gathered form a mutual friend).
i'm not even ugly (according to public eye, idk i think i'm pretty average) or mean either. like. idk what i'm doing wrong to not attract my type. if i even have one. what is wrong with me omfg.
i promise i'm sweet and loving but it's like so damn hard to fall in love like what the actual fuck.
dear Godddd please give me a pretty physics boyfriend that i can play minecraft with and don't have weird mixed feelings about. please. PLEASE
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randomgamecube
I know I've already told you this but I promise there's no need to rush the process. God will present someone in your life when the time is right, if there were people in the past that were cool but you didn't go for them it means you were steered the other way for a reason.
Also dating sucks man. It's so exhausting putting yourself out there just to find out someone is crazy, you don't click, or even worse you're already in a relationship with the other person when you find these things out and now the fallout is damn near nuclear. I had one ex track where I was for months after I had cut ties and she ended up kicking a nice big dent in the side of one of my old cars when she saw me talking with some other people I had met. Literally just not worth it at all.
the best advice is from one who's lived through it, so i'll take your word!! :-) thanks for reminding me to be patient and trust in God. I really appreciate it.
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starlord
same
see u understand :-(
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