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Category: Blogging
I like feeling overworked because it's the only way I can be satisfied with the work I've done. what's productivity if you don't work until you mentally can't anymore? I am capable of anything, provided I stay motivated. » Continue Reading
Category: School, College, University
fuckin g myself up on a question and then seeing the "calculator allowed" icon in the corner LMAAOOOOOOO i'm cooked for this class. » Continue Reading
Category: Blogging
it's killing me, man. i spend longer and longer times to get my homework done. the screens overtake me, I get trapped and I can't stop. i can't do anything anymore. i used to be so smart. my preschool teachers swore i was a prodigy. i scored 99th percentile on everything. what have i become? now i'm an idiot who can't do more than two questions in a row without taking breaks that last longer than ... » Continue Reading
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Category: Romance and Relationships
doesn't mean i don't want it though. i think if you forgave me it'd be nice, but by gosh i don't deserve it. i only teased you so much because i saw you do that to everyone else, you even did it to me. it's not an excuse but it's an explanation. or something. sorry, i'm really sorry. i thought that being like you would make us closer. that's what i do with everyone. everyone loves their reflecti... » Continue Reading
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Category: Quiz/Survey
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Category: Life
though I dress myself in dark clothing and line my eyes darker, I love the Lord as much as you do. I know I'm not the daughter you want. I love you, mom, but you always try to change me. why can't you love me for who I am? I wear black and wear my makeup dark and my brown hair fluffed up because God says "come as you are" and I do. clothing and makeup doesn't send the "wrong message" anymore. I'm ... » Continue Reading
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Category: Blogging
i want to kiss someone so bad, but I only have one person I want to kiss. he definitely does not want me. it's sooo grueling. i don't want anything more or less than that, just a kiss. i've heard kissing isn't all that, but i want to know for myself. i wish i had lower standards sometimes, but that's also kind of scary to think about. ah well. even if i can't find a boyfriend, my hyperphantasia wi... » Continue Reading
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Category: Blogging
i have my own problems and hearing people complain all the time about their own lives in hopes of being comforted by me just pisses me off. i can only help so much. so many people take my energy and comforting words and then refuse to change. and keep complaining about the same thing every night. wasting my time. my sleep. they're a waste of neuron activity at this point. shut UP. i don't MIND com... » Continue Reading
Category: Writing and Poetry
Demonstrate your realness and maybe then I will snap out of my trance. Prove to me you’re human. Let » Continue Reading
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Category: Blogging
i rejected a boy because i didn't like him, not sure why. he fit all of my criteria, but i didn't like him. i feel bad, like really bad. he's liked me for years, apparently. i just felt...nothing. i felt so guilty rejecting him that i had dreams about it. i feel awful but he deserves someone that actually loves him and i can't do that for him. i don't deserve to complain about wanting love. » Continue Reading
Category: Romance and Relationships
honestly, loving is too hard and no matter how much i want it i don't think i'll ever get the ideal version of love that I want. i think i'll be single for my whole life. there are days where i'm on my knees begging God for someone to love, clinging to my pillows for dear life while i listen to depressing music through a blur of hot tears. these days hurt really bad, the loneliness almost feels su... » Continue Reading
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