When the storms hits and the rain fall Like thousands of rocks thrown on you, When you feel the dam break And notice the fleeing wildlife, Frozen in place in disbelief Fear not letting the torrent take hold of your body; Fear the desperate urge to cling to the shore For it will consume your strength dry, Depleted you will be surely drown. » Continue Reading
I deem myself recovered since 2024 from an eating disorder I've had on and off (with big restrictive periods and more lax ones succeeding each other) since 2019. It made me restrict, it made my over-exercise, it made me take laxatives, puke, lie over and over. But most of all, it made me fucking miserable. Sure, seeing the digits go down was euphoric. But it was never enough. Food was everything t... » Continue Reading
First of all, i'll most likely delete this blog because it's just some sad vent-writing and keeping it online doesn't benefit anyone, not even myself. But yeah, i am frequently forced to face the fact that my ideas are not new. My takes are not unique. My art is not anything new. It's not even anything already done before that I somehow manage to do even better. It's just some grotesque collage th... » Continue Reading
Is it because the sun is setting so early now that when i leave work, it's dark already; or is it the season that would call for warmth reminding me that i've felt such warmth so few times? The conflicted disdain for end of the year celebrations with the newlywed excitement to share a moment with those i cherish. Some reassurance that i find in stories of people with far worse destinies, or is it... » Continue Reading
i lowkey got a slap back to reality seeing my age in my profile lol cause in comparison to many on here i'm like old but in comparison to my co-workers for example, most are over 28 so i'm young af. age is weird, aging is even weirder. tell me how my 30 years old colleague looks like she's like 23? and how in contrast, this other colleague who's 21 seems to be my brother's age (27)? so like, 24 i... » Continue Reading
the OFFICIAL french dub of the song "Lord's Millennium's Heart" from the 2006 anime D.Gray-Man... it makes sense but it ruins the beauty of the song, so i came up with my own. In the original, the song goes like this: "εεΉ΄ε ¬γ―ζ’γγ¦γγ // ε€§δΊγͺγγΌγζ’γγ¦γγ // γγͺγγ―γγγοΌ// η’Ίγγγγ || (singer changes) "εεΉ΄ε ¬γ―ζ’γγ¦γ//ε€§δΊγͺγγΌγζ’γγ¦ » Continue Reading
"Mosaic of people [I've ever loved, even for a heartbeat]" , is a blog series dedicated to recollecting the memories I have of people I have met, and still remember even after time has passed. Botanical Ghost » Continue Reading
Decaying Birth (about coming to terms with my gender identity) Worms feasting on my flesh, Wiggling through the cracks Of who I once was. I inflate then explode To make my body anew. Kind bones carry me Through the » Continue Reading
"Mosaic of people [I've ever loved, even for a heartbeat]" , is a serie of blogs dedicated to recollecting the memories I have of people who I have met, and still remember even after time has passed. Ignoring the fact that this is the first blog in the serie, this one is a bit different because it doesn't recall someone I got close with but rather people I briefly met at a party. Karaoke Birthday ... » Continue Reading
So I have Borderline Personality Disorder. I'll illustrate some points that can be difficult to conceptualize with real experiences I've had. It's going to be long as fuck. So pay attention to the section titles if you don't want to read the whole thing. Also: I'm kinda lazy so I just took from the Wikipedia page, where all the source links are. So, BPD typically manifests through nine distinct sy... » Continue Reading
I just saw a Tiktok from Monty (please don't go hate on them) randomly pop in my feed, in which they very briefly explained that trans and cis men are not the same. And I agree, unlike some of the comment section. So I thought I'd talk about it here. Trans men are NOT cis men and - despite how invalidating that may sound - we will NEVER be cis men. I am NOT saying trans men are any less men than c... » Continue Reading