sound sound sound never stops, it irks me; disturbs me like the ticking on a clock even at night when theres "nothing" to hear sound is just quiet and it is still there just like a stalker sound follows you where... ever you go itll always be there run or you hide try to flee or escape you will always be bound to sound » Continue Reading
when the thumping begins there becomes a great panic where is it from? who is it after? is it after me? remember who you are you're nothing, nothing at all. no ones after you who would be? no body goes after something if its not worth anything after all. you think again of who you really are nobodies nothing and you are something and thats when you begin to realize the overwhelming feelin » Continue Reading
I just figured out my online friend was a catfish. I thought they were this indian boy who lived in a rural place but it was just a random girl who made the account to torment their ex and just so happened to to lead me on in the friendship. i don't care that they arent a male. i'm just upset that they aren't who i thought they we're and i was texting for almost 2 months. i feel so fucking dumb i... » Continue Reading
pluck.. pluck.. plucking away at the nerves in my body soothing my soul, my body, and mind... slowly getting weaker but finding the ether; leads you to the correct path no more plucking; plucking ends. ether fades; plucking begins. no ether found; so you keep pluck.. pluck.. plucking » Continue Reading
temporary state.. i wish i didn't forget. just as i was happy, and full of glee a big wave of reality crashes right against me. it throws me to the ground right back into my space of glum. it's cold, lonely, and certainly no fun. so as i dry off in my cold, isolated space i let my mind rest, recalculate back into its rightful place. and i begin to remind myself that happiness » Continue Reading
the wires in my head, keep getting tied up and twisted around i can't tell the difference between adoration, and love, my messed up perception is driving me crazy. i don't know what to do and i don't know what or who can help me. i'll fiddle with the wires some more again. hoping that i'll tear the wire that's connected to the light shining with a disorienting vision of "real love." bu » Continue Reading
silence.. a sound that enters when people exit. a melancholic atmosphere that drowns you with glum and makes you feel as if you're lonely.. i deny the silence trying to trick myself into thinking, "it's not silent, no. there's just not enough sound" but the silence around me appears frequently haunting me day by day as i lay by myself.. lonely, sad, and trying to convince myself i'm okay » Continue Reading
sleeping. we sleep at night and sometimes in day sometimes i wonder if one day i won't wake. I hope i do because my journeys not done. I hope to live more life and have plenty more fun. so tonight i will sleep and ill hope to wake up so for now while im away just know ill be sleeping. » Continue Reading
constipation. constipation. you push but won't come out. the doubt submerging in your mind it helps not and it's worthless. remove the doubt from in your mind drain it, expel it, whatever. you'll find yourself relaxed, you'll find it easier to expel these feelings. my message may not be clear but if you read it once again, you might come to realize that this isn't about actual.. const » Continue Reading
waiting and waiting everyday i have done waiting for new events, emotions, and slightly more fun waiting and waiting everyday i have done yet nothing new happens by the time day has past i reflect on my actions yet i find that nothing changed from what i did yesterday and the day before so waiting and waiting i have done it seems that my waiting and waiting is not yet done » Continue Reading
I hope we reincarnate. I'm only scared of rollercoasters because i'm afraid of heights. I'm only scared of heights because i'm afraid of falling. I'm only scared of falling because i'm afraid of death. I'm only afraid of death because nobody knows what's next. I don't want to die and it's like an endless sleep surrounded by nothingness. I'd rather it be like an endless lucid dream where you can ... » Continue Reading