my messed up mind..

the wires in my head,

keep getting tied up and twisted around 

i can't tell the difference 

between 

adoration,

and love,

my messed up perception is

driving me crazy. 

i don't know what to do and i don't know what

or who can help me.

i'll fiddle with the wires some more

again. hoping that i'll tear the wire

that's connected to the light shining with a disorienting 

vision of "real love."

but instead i still tear the wrong wires

which set me back further and baffle me again.

but still now i'm confused so i'll 

go back to fiddling with 

the wires in my head...