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Category: Friends
hi everyone, i’ve wanted a penpal for so long but it’s impossible from many aspects. so i’ve thought i could find some e-penpals! we can send each other long e-mails, tell us each other about our days and it can even stay totally anonymous. if anyone’s interested you can comment under this and i’ll send you my e-mail adress! » Continue Reading
Category: Life
oh i’m fine, it’s alright. everything’s fine. until it’s 5 am and i’m alone and there’s nothing to distract me from my sadness, from realizing no one actually cares enough. maybe i’m selfish for thinking so, i know my best friend is doing the best she can. but she’s too far away (literally, she lives in another city) and i desperately need someone to hold my hand, hug me, let me break down in fron... » Continue Reading
Category: Life
my best friend texted me to tell me to change my bandages but i relapsed while doing so and now i feel more shitty and guilty » Continue Reading
Category: Life
can’t smoke on this rainy day so i’ll sh instead ahh day » Continue Reading
Category: Life
how do you ever deal with the dilemma of not wanting your friends to realize you’re hurting yourself because you don’t wanna be a burden to them any more than you already are but also kinda want them to realize because you need a shoulder to cry on and some comfort without judging. i feel so sad. i had this whole 3 year sobriety and i fucked that up. now no milestone is gonna make me feel better.... » Continue Reading
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Category: Life
i wish i wasn’t so desperate for attention. my long distance crush/situationship/whatever just tweeted that he has a crush on someone. wow. such great news! but i have to ask what about the fact that you keep hitting on me ? or am i just too much of an idiot to think that was flirting and you were just joking around and i just take it too seriously? i’m so fucking tired man i told myself that this... » Continue Reading
Category: Life
when your long distance crush has gone to a heated rivalry party wearing a rozanov tshirt and you know he’s gonna get figuratively eaten by some handsome autistics but you can’t do anything about it because you guys don’t even have a situationship and you’re just someone he talks to in his free time » Continue Reading
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Category: Life
i talk and i talk and i talk. i talk so much that i feel embarrassed afterwards because everytime i open my mouth it’s like a long crying plea for someone to understand me and i am so tired. and i’m so mad at myself because all my friends ever do is be nice to me and i’m still so sad and depressed and when i’m upset about my shitty grades i feel even worse because i did this to myself and i don’t ... » Continue Reading
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Category: Life
ever since i moved out from my parents’ house, i’ve realized how absent they’ve been through my whole life. i could never tell them the things i actually cared about. they never got to know who i actually am and i don’t think they ever will. i tried so fucking hard to understand their perspective and motives but they never tried to do the same with me. it was always their beliefs and their rules a... » Continue Reading
Category: Life
i once made myself believe that my partner is gonna leave me anyways and now i find it hard to even chat with them and they don’t try either so it’s just really suffocating. short version of this text: bpd is kicking my ass. i know they won’t leave me but at the same i don’t know. it’s like i Know but i can’t make myself believe it. it’s always the same problems i don’t know why i even keep tryi... » Continue Reading
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Category: Life
i don’t have passion for anything. i don’t do anything with an ambition. i think that’s the biggest void in my life. i have no reason to keep living and it’s driving me mad. i don’t enjoy anything enough to make an obsession of it for a long time so maybe it could get me career or at least a hobby, an outlet. i have none. i have tried everything. i don’t want anything enough to fight for it. i am ... » Continue Reading
Category: Life
i couldn’t sleep at all last night. so today after i was done with college i wanted to take a nap for an hour. i woke up like 20 minutes ago and i feel like shit. i’ve felt like shit for a long time now so it’s not something new but somedays i feel like i can’t bear it any longer and i’m ashamed to tell my friends that i feel so bad that i can’t even get out of bed to eat most of the time. they lo... » Continue Reading
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