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i once made myself believe that my partner is gonna leave me anyways and now i find it hard to even chat with them and they don’t try either so it’s just really suffocating.
short version of this text: bpd is kicking my ass.
i know they won’t leave me but at the same i don’t know. it’s like i Know but i can’t make myself believe it. it’s always the same problems i don’t know why i even keep trying my chances with them. it has been 3 years and we broke up 5 times already. and i love them but somedays i just feel like i don’t like them at all. it’s hurtful. i tried so hard to get them back into my life and now i’m just acting like an asshole again. i don’t think i’m ever gonna be a good partner. idk why they still try to keep up with me or try to please me. i will never be pleased. i’ll always want more and try to look for it in other places. i’m disgusting.
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hssnd_ou
Something similar happened to me and from experience I recommend truly sitting down and thinking if the relationship is truly worth keeping and truly what you want. If it’s not what you want and you decide to leave for good it will most likely hurt you and it’s going to feel that way for a while but afterwards you’re going to realize how a bad relationship like that with no reassurance will drain you more than expect.
i can’t leave i have to make it work. we chased each other for 3 years and they have a tattoo for our relationship and stuff.. leaving isn’t an option. i need to be a better partner.
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Its okay I understand when there’s a true connection, whatever you do make sure you’re okay and never let yourself deteriorate more.
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Its okay I understand when there’s a true connection, whatever you do make sure you’re okay and never let yourself deteriorate more.
by hssnd_ou; ; Report