Ok today is 5/19/2025 and it's oddly going to rain today. weird since the high for most days has been around 95 degrees or a high 80s. It's actually quite nice to have a decent weather day for once. Because it's been so hot lately and that we need to get the guy that mows our lawn back to ya know mow our lawn, i found a rattlesnake near our backdoor, nestled in the leaves when i was throwing out s... » Continue Reading
today is 5/9/2025, and it's a Friday and you know what that means!!! i'm about to get political because i'm pmsing like a motherfucker right now. The tariff situation is getting even more crazy. i know that sounds like a YouTube thumbnail but i'm serious. trump is clearly not in his right mind if he thinks Mattel the toy company that created barbie and hot wheels is a country. i'm serious about th... » Continue Reading
Ok today is 5/7/2025 its oddly sunny here espechially after what happened yesterday. legit thought the roof was going to be ripped off and fly around. hate how stressed out i was but i'm good now. nothing interesting has happened i mean my mental health is at all time low but repeating it all the time isn't going to help me its just going to make me even more depressed but on that topic i decided ... » Continue Reading
Today is 5/6/2025 and it's a fucking Monday. This Monday was interesting, woke up due to a trauma nightmare and only fell back asleep around 6:30 am and woke up five hours later. For context, I woke up at around 3:00 am, so I really did have that great of a sleep to begin with. On top of that when I woke up at 11:06 am the sky you know something that usually sunny was fucking super, super dark lik... » Continue Reading
Today is Monday 5/5/2025, Cinco de Mayo aka a day for white people to get black out drunk while eating the vague impression of Mexican food, even worse now since the tariffs on what we would consider traditionally Mexican like avocadoes. Anyway, that's not today's rant or vent. Today i'm just talking, really. i think me choosing to do the diary entry before i start to write is acting like a warm-u... » Continue Reading
Ok, today is may the forth, don't worry this isn't going to Segway into a dumb Star Wars joke. I think Star Wars fans are delulu and much more nerdy than Star Trek fans. Trekkie's are the best, and we created fandom with our own two hands. But enough with fandom rants, today's entry is going to be kinda sad lover girl core. Today I'm talking about my lack of romantic attention, not to sound depres... » Continue Reading
I'm going to try and date these, so I'll remember what time this was posted. Today is 5/3/2025 on a Saturday, and honestly it's quite nice out today, very sunny and the weather is very, very mild compared to some of the insane shit we've been having to deal with. Yesterday it was getting completely overcast and the rain, oh the rain! The rain was so bad it knocked out the powers, there was a chanc... » Continue Reading
Ok, so it's been awhile since I had even attempted a diary. Back when I was still in high school, back when I had my first boyfriend, and back when I was still trying to get into my local alt/emo scene. I was clearly laughed out of it, which now explains my lack of identity, really. I just turned 20 in the last couple of days and compared to the birthday I got for my 19th...it was amazing. I got p... » Continue Reading
So April 28th is my birthday, i'm turning 20 years old. Been on this planet for 2 decades. i'm still figuring out who i am and what i am. i know i am an emo and a general weirdo but like i've never been...normal. Like i have friends one IRL and three online but i never really had a boyfriend, never had a normal home life and look at me, i collect dolls but i couldn't be happier about who i am. i'm... » Continue Reading