Diary chapter four

Today is Monday 5/5/2025, Cinco de Mayo aka a day for white people to get black out drunk while eating the vague impression of Mexican food, even worse now since the tariffs on what we would consider traditionally Mexican like avocadoes. Anyway, that's not today's rant or vent. Today i'm just talking, really. i think me choosing to do the diary entry before i start to write is acting like a warm-up. Just getting my brain to work while ignoring the word count, cause normally for a fic chapter i try to do a 1000 or at the very best 1500. Just depends on what's going on in the fic and the lore.

i should probably work on my doctor who fic, i kinda painted myself in the corner with it since i've only seen clips of it and i'm riffing off of that, oh and reading the gallifrey wiki. i would go a full binge but i'm still going the Star Trek series and i'm half way though season 2. also i got to finish the righteous gemstones (I CRY CAUSE AHHHHHH WE NEED A MOVIE) and i need to watch the suicide squad along with the original suicide squad, mostly for the meme. Today we are supposed to get drenched again. The weather has been really rainy lately like i've said before but idk i'm worried about possible property damage. That's the last fucking thing we need. UGH!!!!! i need a knock off dr pepper already just as i write this. On a more positive note i've figured out my sleep schedule and i'm getting up at a very decent time, i did sleep in for two more hours but i'm up and being productive. Our fridge is barely running and i'm scared that i will wake up and find spoiled food and it being warm, just another expense that's draining our bank.

i'm so tired so tired....well not tired like i need a nap but tired like emotionally?? i've been like this since i gained sentience. i mean, i grew up in a really shitty home life, so i had to act more like an adult before i even started my period. Weird how it is and how common it is for girls to have to parent their own parents. i wish it didn't have to be this way, but most people don't look inward and if they do, they really aren't looking. Oh, also to tack on to the weather convo, we are under a fucking flood watch. UGHHHHHH i'm over it lowkey.

Oh, also this week's tarot read i will post RN.

Ok i only did a three card reading which is what i usually do for a weekly reading. Six cards for me is only for like a monthly reading, which i need to do here soon.

First card- Eight of cups- it's time for a change, i need to leave the old behind and search for something newTherere is desire for a more fulfilling life. Walk away from chaos and towards something better.

Second card- The hanged man- i need to pause and reflect and consider things for a new angle, could also be a period of transition.

Third card- Ace of cups- this is a positive message of new beginnings! May be romantic, maybe making new friends or i get pregnant.

ok, this is a wonderful reading, been needing something like this for awhile! the last card tho i find to be funny cause like who would get me pregnant? spock?? i would hope cause at least then i'll get Vulcan citizenship cause fuck this.

Much love,

Princess xoxo