I question myself why i'm so hesitant to continue blogging. And i feel like i'm just escaping from my own thoughts, like i think about blogging, what i'm gonna blogg about, preparing to blogg etc but i find excuses to just not actually blogg. I have one lingering question that's always in my mind; "when am i ready to die"? i'm not happy, but i'm not suicidal. I mean, i fantasize about my death a l... » Continue Reading
feels like something is taking over my brain it knows what affects me it knows how my brain works it couldn’t scare me away for good so how it’s working on my brain. I tried calling out for Cassies name, but everything freezes in a dark place It wants to possess me It wants to erase everything and everyone from my life » Continue Reading
i relapsed hekp me it hurts but i like it i like it so much im fucked up iwhy cant i be normal holy shit its so unfair how people can be normal and can have healthy relationships i just want a normal life with love i just want to be loved and capable of love why am i fucked uo » Continue Reading
things that i like, because small things matter. minimal maximal - wired headphones - psychological horror - pastel ghost - controversial topics - drawing ... » Continue Reading
my friends makes me feel so dumb, we have our good moments and all that and we like to joke around n stuff as we always do but lately they're making more targeted jokes towards me and i dont know if it's just me being sensitive. I'm so self-aware lately it's eating me up and im scared » Continue Reading
i got dumped hfhhhhh and i pretend it dosent bother me but mhhbbb also my grades r destroying me hghhhg and i try to convince myself that i'm capable of more but mfhgbhf im jus so sleepy and lazy » Continue Reading