been away for a while. and well fuck, guess where i've been? yeah worse comes to worse i might have to delete this whole shitty blog. i know no one really but i swear... i might be stuck to a bed forever possibility. not something i wanted so maybe it's all my fault » Continue Reading
funny remember one snippet into my life: i was cosplaying as Fyodor Dostoevsky at a school event and some rando just went up to ME. ME? OF ALL PEOPLE? and then they told me their friend had a crush on me and then THEY RAN TO WHERE THEY HAD POINTED TO WHERE THEIR "SUPPOSED" FRIEND IS SUPPOSED TO BE. AND I AM CACKLING IDK WHAT TO TAKE IT AS BUT IT SURE AS HELL ONE OF THE FUNNIEST DAY I HAD IN MY EN... » Continue Reading
november is one of the cold months. i feel it in my bones because every friend i have is in a graveyard or in a place happier. ugh oh how the passion leaves my spirits! oh and how the love for the esoteric and enigmas just fade! i wanna hang out w someone that seems interesting, or in a way that is actually 'wow' to listen endlessly to music w them and to jusr cry in their arms; to die in the arm... » Continue Reading
TOOT TOOT ANOTHER FIC WILL BE GRACED UPON YOU ALL. well this is yuri, so i hope you all enjoy ( as if you'll even read it ) but WHATEVERRRR well it kinda sucks i do hope it is to your liking. Rooting For You~ » Continue Reading
oh right, halloween is literally today, honestly i dont feel it—the spooky spirit isn't prevalent in my place, plus i dont go outside enough to ever really know halloween is like but i do like; i wanna cosplay for halloween honestly, but i threw that idea out of the window because how good would it be if i can't even find money to buy my shit. should get a job soon and move my ass pweh. » Continue Reading
FUCK IT. wanna write some good toxic rn—whenever i think about what ships to make that out of i'm really at a loss because HOW THE FUCK DO YOU MAKE GOOD TOXIC YURI IN THE FIRST PLACE or since it's toxic it should be that how do you make it worser !!! a lot of tropes i think about is abuser x victim, bully x bullied. pweh but honestly one of the ones i ruminate a lot on is murderer x hostage. imagi... » Continue Reading
I hear those who have burdened themselves; And I stand amidst all of what they call chaos; But, on the ground, I could find my peace; Ridden of daydreams, and riddled in kisses; I see those who run away from the black flame that plague » Continue Reading
i like to think myself as some lowly entity, a fallen ash from a car crash that happened in the neighborhood overnight, or a germ that only sprung to life because i was neglected way too much. when people ask me what i wanna be in the future; i'd wanna be dead! well, not really, but i get those tendencies a lot but then i answer them with what i really wanna be and it's just 'ok' or some other sup... » Continue Reading
i hate this sm, you know this feeling where it's like there's a knot in your stomach and your head keeps spinning so goddamn much. yeah, on top of that i wanna enjoy the day but GOD the fan makes me feel so cold no matter how far i am or how weak the level is--i could die of hypothermia. well, it isn't that serious i can just turn it off but after a while it gets hot and i have to cool down again.... » Continue Reading