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"inbetween being young and being right you were my first sight at light." or whatever the lyrics are. your like the light at the end of the tunnle but Your really just a flash light in the middle of it, backing away from me, slowly. A false prophet of sorts.. "follow me to salvation," is all you can say but you know all the words to make it sound like anything but that. Like a carnival master,... » Continue Reading
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Hey guys! Welcome back to, "alan's having a crisis and this is the only way he can get his felings out!" so... How have you been? Oh me? Ive just been fucking dandy. Thanks for asking.. If you really want to know ive just been (still am) in an amazing relationship with a compleat narcissist! That would be fine if he wasent already the worst person in my life. (read my other blogs if u must kno... » Continue Reading
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i know were in high-school but, i want you forever. Please dont let this end like yoir other relationships because i know ill wait for you again. I cant hande it again. Fuck i love you more then anything i can currently think of. If you are just fucking around this time, why does it feel so real? I miss us more then anything. Dont let me down this time. I know im giving you all this attention... » Continue Reading
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i did research on paranoid personality disorder and holy shit, im like 80% sure thats me.. Ive always known i was paranoid about things but jesus i feel it so much right now. My friend was just over and now i feel like theres cameras everywhere and hes showing it to people and that hes telling everyone all of the shit i said. I cant breathe and ive been crying and apologizing to "him" for almost... » Continue Reading
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people (including me) need to make up their minds. I wish all desisions were as eary as fliping a light switch but jesus, everyone has masterd the art of balanceing it between the two. I wish i could stop making up shit about everyone, its not even just me doing it for the intention of telling others, its just some weird back and forth hell with myself where i need to feel like the bad guy and t... » Continue Reading
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My own mind is a prison.. I cant go an hour without altering my own memories. I cant stop thinking. I wish i could breathe in, stop life, for like 5 minutes, exhale and go back to normal. Anxiety is not for the weak.. I swear to god if i see one more person abandon me slowly because of a LITERAL RAPIST im going to end it! Even just hearing about the times i was riped away from people because ... » Continue Reading
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Ma and him talked today, apparently he thought we hit it off (again) and we walked home together. I know he will ruin my life, i know its going to be all my fault for letting him in again. I cant belive im so fucking retarded! I know he is going to break me down, but i will always just come right back. Like a scab over a deep cut. The way he looks at me makes me think he wants Everything back to w... » Continue Reading
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I wish he would have went to jail so i dont have to see his beuatiful fucking face at school everyday. I wish he would have done so much to get himself out of my life but he hasent. Maybe i need to try more but i fucking cant! And i cant blame it on him anymore either, i miss him. Its so fucking stupid to admit but i definitely miss him. I miss the way our boddies fit together, and even the ... » Continue Reading
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I just pierced my own ear and i feel like some stupid teen, (who i am) and it keeps reminding me of my old friend group. I miss being with all of them, watching cringy things and laughing over anything. We all used to be into undertale in like 2018, so we were reminiscing and talking about comic dubs of randon undertale comics and the weird x-mas one showed up. And idk when but sum1 calls a weir... » Continue Reading
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the person who i literly spent hours crying over, i spent a good half of my life with,(platonicly and dating) literally owend half of my fuckimg soul, half of my eevrything at this point. Well when i confronted him abt all the shit he pulled he chose to go with the gaslight aprotch insted of the normal "sorry" way. When i said he BY DEFINITION! SA'd me he was like. "nah man you got me all wrong ... » Continue Reading
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ok, so my ex did lots of bad shit to me, i know ive doon shit to hurt him too but.. Anyway i cant make up my mind on sether or not i shoud text his new boyfriend and tell him as like a warning because of the severeness of what happend between us. Like his new bf was one of my close friends for a while but now my ex spread lots of shit abt me and now he dosent like me. But i dont even mean this ... » Continue Reading
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TW: SA so what makes SA, SA? because ill see vids on tt that are like "hesatation means no" but what if i said yes after? Or even like "being begged mean no" but i said YES! if i told him "later" and he kept prying till i said yes or tryed to kiss me till i was willing enough to say yes, is that SA? Plz lmk like idk how to feel abt this! » Continue Reading
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