Im so stupid

      I wish he would have went to jail so i dont have to see his beuatiful fucking face at school everyday. I wish he would have done so much to get himself out of my life but he hasent. Maybe i need to try more but i fucking cant! And i cant blame it on him anymore either, i miss him. Its so fucking stupid to admit but i definitely miss him. I miss the way our boddies fit together, and even the excruciatingly painfull way we pulled apart. I miss not knowing anything but him and how our "love" was. I dont know how he felt about me but i know what he made me feel. Id go back to him in a heartbeat, even only thinking of the bad things he did to "us" i would still go back like he is all i have. Just the image of his gorgeous eyes is enough for me to yearn for him again. Dreaming of him every night. He is anybody elses worst case sanario but jesus, i need him like i need a fucking bullet to the cranium.

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