Make up your mind

  people (including me) need to make up their minds. I wish all desisions were as eary as fliping a light switch but jesus, everyone has masterd the art of balanceing it between the two. I wish i could stop making up shit about everyone, its not even just me doing it for the intention of telling others, its just some weird back and forth hell with myself where i need to feel like the bad guy and the victem at the same time and its so fucking tiering!

  i wish i could be more open with my councler and not with people who dont give a shit about me. All the people i need most in life are so back and forth with me! Except toby, love you man! But holy moly it is a gruleing task just to deside who to talk to bc i dont know how what im saying is going to make them react. 

Idk.. Im just slow or somthing.. Basicly just a pete wentz wannabe.