"rotting"
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Category: Writing and Poetry
Eu só queria ter uma mente que não estivesse o tempo todo tentando me sabotar, me colocar pra baixo, criando coisas que não existem, eu não aguento mais viver nessa luta contra mim mesma. Você sabe como é ter que depender da visão da nicole sobre uma situação porque não posso confiar na minha própria percepção? É tão cansativo e difícil viver assim. Eu me conforto pensando que é por causa da adole... » Continue Reading
Category: Writing and Poetry
I am such a sad and lacking person that I feel this will kill me one day. I wrote about this lack once. I went to the birthday party I had to go to. It wasn't good, obviously, because I get bored in those places, but I met his boyfriend, so it was worth it, it was the reason I went. Sometimes I get a little upset knowing that I will never/not anytime soon be able to experience a love like that, fo... » Continue Reading
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Cresci com pessoas que romantizavam a falta, entendi que a falta nos tornava mais fortes e sábios. Como meus pais costumavam falar tão honoravelmente desta falta, que ela criava caráter e afins, comecei a aderir a ela. A falta de comida, falta de amor, falta de pessoas, com o passar do tempo vivi as mais variadas faltas e me apeguei a cada uma delas. Porém, ao contrário do que todos diziam, não me... » Continue Reading
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I wanted a diagnosis. Instead of just trying to treat it, I also wanted to understand why I am the way I am. My father says it's to get his attention, my mother says it's a vitamin deficiency, others say it's because of my family; I just wanted a reason, an explanation for why I'm like this. My family has no history of mental health problems; it's a completely clean record. No one even has a histo... » Continue Reading
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I can no longer feel pleasure for leaving my house, even though I know I'll be better off outside than inside. I also loved to read, but I can't even open a book anymore. Before, I just stayed home and slept to forget I was home, but nowadays at least I can watch TV and play games, besides sleeping. But I constantly feel sad, I feel like life has nothing for me anymore. I only felt genuine happine... » Continue Reading
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"The reason you can't believe he loves you, is because YOU don't love yourself" So one girl just said that to me while I was drunk and got me thinking for like a week » Continue Reading
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I feel like there's something missing in me, something that other people have that I don't. This thing makes me feel empty and also different, like I'm from another species, or like everyone else is a cookie, but I'm missing one ingredient in the recipe. And I feel like I'll never be happy until I fill this something that I'm missing, but how can I fill it if I don't know what it is? I wonder if ... » Continue Reading
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I go to her gym, I go to her church, I take care of her house, I get the grades she wants, and in the middle of all this she finds time to complain about how sad I am even though she does everything she can to help me and how I am not cooperating with her help. I can do all of this without saying a word, but she cannot expect to have both. Either I do everything she wants or I am happy, because on... » Continue Reading
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I remember when I was a kid and I was sleeping at my grandma's house, I received the news that my childhood dog had died. My reaction was definitely not what the adults expected. I didn't cry or nothing, It was like nothing had happened, until I saw my mama in the other day. When I looked at her, I started crying about the dog, like she had unearthed the feelings in me, exposing a fragility and s... » Continue Reading
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I think that the worst part of being in a relashionship, platonic or not, is having to pretend that everything is ok and nothing bothers you, because if bothers it becomes a problem and the person doesnt want to be with you anymore. I feel like I am always erasing myself to be loveable because knowing me more leads to loving me less » Continue Reading
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SHE NEEDS HIM AND HE IS THERE FOR HER BUT NOT FOR ME I HATE THEM ALL BUT I NEED THEM I HATE THIS SHIT I REAALY NEED TO DIE I FEEL SO FUCKING NEGLIGIBLE I HATE IT I HATE » Continue Reading
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Category: Writing and Poetry
I am going through one of the worst moments of my life and mental health. I really need support right now, but I have to continue pretending that everything is ok so people dont worry about me and I become a problem to them. I dont have a mother nor father figure. All the love, affection and care I need to live, I have found in two other people who I dont share any blood with, and It makes asking... » Continue Reading
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