So, it's now 9:05 pm. Most of my day was good, it kind of really sucked recently though. Me and my mom got in yet another fight about school. They started class selection in February, so I told her most classes are going to be full. She's convinced they won't be, I said it doesn't work like that. Anyway, she basically told me to just go eat dinner and fuck off, so I did. I'm in my room now. I ate ... » Continue Reading
I had a meeting to talk about school yesterday. Went a lot worse than I expected, actually. I don't know if I have to repeat the school year or not, which is a whole issue on its own. They kept talking about anxiety that I haven't felt in two years, also. Like I don't feel like that anymore. That was almost three years ago dude. I think the worst part was the advisor saying "she's transitioning". ... » Continue Reading
This is stupid, really. Just dumb identity shit that doesn't even matter. Feel free to ignore this. Not that anybody's going to see this. If you're reading this and you personally know me, I probably talked about you. As much as I fucking hate labels, I feel like I need them. I know that's because I feel like I'm inconveniencing everyone by not having them. I like being girly, and I like being mas... » Continue Reading
It's been exactly two weeks since my last post. Honestly didn't mean for that to happen, but whatever. Nothing super interesting has really happened anyway. I was with my boyfriend for four days just now, so that sort of kept my brain quiet. Now I'm home, and it's a lot less quiet. It's kind of annoying. I also wish I could do something about it, but I can't. I guess I actually could, but it's wh... » Continue Reading
So, I finally saw my boyfriend! It was super fun. A little awkward, but otherwise fun. Anyway, I'm home no, and my mood's shit. Not exactly surprising, but I wasn't expecting it hit me full force as soon as I got home. It's whatever. I'll get over it, I usually do. Music still fucking sucks, and I don't want to write or play. Picked up my guitar for a bit today, but I haven't practiced so it sucke... » Continue Reading
So, to start, I'm seeing him NEXT week. Not this week. I'm also only staying one night. Which is fine, I guess. Just thought I'd be staying longer. I mean, we can always do this another time, but I have no clue when we both will have time again. It's whatever. I did manage to finish a song this week. Not sure how much I actually like it, but it's the only thing I've got at the moment and I'm not r... » Continue Reading
It’s finally July! It’s getting hotter, and more humid. It also means all my fun plans are coming up soon! Hopefully this month doesn’t go completely wrong. So, I honestly can’t remember if I said anything about this, but I have a boyfriend! We met up for Pierce The Veil and I got the biggest crush on him there. Anyway, I’m going to go see him next week! He lives a state away but on the opposite s... » Continue Reading
It’s June 24th on a Tuesday and past 11:00 pm. It was literally 100° outside. It’s horrible. My clothes feel sticky and my hair is dry, and there’s nowhere comfortable in my house because it’s so hot. I also have no motivation. For anything. I have no motivation to work on music or pick up my guitar, to play games, or like, anything else. I have no motivation to cope also. How the fuck do you lose... » Continue Reading
Two things. The weather really sucks, and I still have nothing written. We're having some crazy heat wave right now and it is so disgustingly hot. Why is it past 10 pm and still above 75 degrees. There's literally no need for that. The next wo days are supposed to get near 100 also, like what the hell is up with that? Then this weekend is supposed to be cold and rainy. New England weather is such ... » Continue Reading
Maybe my priorities aren't straight or something, but writing lyrics and good music is like, really hard. I'll sit with my notebook and try to come up with something that doesn't sound like shit and it just never comes. The same thing happens whenever I pick up my bass or guitar. I like to think I have a ton of cool ideas but in reality my head is sort of just empty when it comes to this. Maybe I'... » Continue Reading
So, I totally forgot to update this for like... a month. I saw Pierce The Veil!!!! There is WAY too much to say about it though, so I'm just not going to say anything. I really miss them though. Anyway, I'm really trying to get back into the habit of doing this daily. I know I say that every time but it's summer now, so like, what excuse do I really have? There's a lot I'm trying to do this summer... » Continue Reading
We all saw that video right? I have so many theories right now it's actually insane. At the moment I'm pretty sure The Black Parade is going to come back. Like it doesn't sound possible but what if it was? I wonder if this will be like a part two thing, like some other thing is coming to keep doing what The Black Parade was doing before like the fire or whatever. This is actually so insane. » Continue Reading