I'm gonna fuck things up I just know it, I don't think before I speak and that's my problem. I'm trying to stop I'm trying to be less like me and more of who people want me to be, but everyone wants a different version and it's so tiring to keep up. I want to good enough for my boyfriend, my friends and my family but no matter how hard I try I always do something wrong. They stay with me due to pi... » Continue Reading
It's 11 at night and I can't sleep, every time I close my eyes I see the slits in my wrists and the blood seeping through my sleeves, each cut deeper then the next. Now I sit in bed crying as I went to see if my dad was in his room so I can talk to him instead I was faced with the stepmother telling me that it was late and I should have talked to my dad about it earlier, it wasn't a problem earlie... » Continue Reading
It's been almost a year since blood has seeped through my sleeves and get that pain will never match the pain feel for hurting you. you cry because of me and that's not far, all I was is for you to be happy and smile that dorky smile that shines when I say something cheesy. » Continue Reading
Long ago when the land was new. When no life existed and nature owned everything. At this time all was watched over by the goddesses of the sun, the moon and the almighty goddes » Continue Reading
yet again has my stepmum hit me. She hit me across the back with my phone for sharing my gmail password with my bestfriend so she could check something for me. The huge red mark on my side reminded me again that the monster trying to be my mum is only here for herself » Continue Reading
I just got home from a 10 day caravan trip with my family, it was fun but also annoying to be so close to my siblings all the time, Also my stepmum shoved a wooden spoon down my throut cause i would try an ice cream flavour that wasn't chocolate. » Continue Reading
I was writing a book. It so far had 5 chapters and almost 3,000 words. My parents go through my Google docs and delete anything they deem useless, they do this without looking into the doc or asking me about it. My story is gone forever. I've tried getting it back but its to late. I'm hurt, I put so much time, care and energy into that project and it was going well. They go through my phone every ... » Continue Reading
its 9:42 pm and I'm sitting on my laptop feeling numb. It's school holidays and I miss my friends but they are all busy or on holiday. if anyone wants to talk about anything friend me i'd love to listen. » Continue Reading
I haven't blogged in awhile lol. My dad put some weird shit on my laptop so I didn't have access for awhile. I'm back now feeling just as shit as before. I fucked up parents found out I was dating a guy they hated them I had to break up with him, I kissed my best friend, and broke another guys heart. I know making mistakes helps you learn but I haven't learn shit except that I suck at relationship... » Continue Reading