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i’m ran, or elias!! i’m currently in college for the fine arts, and unsurprisingly an artist and writer! i’m a lesbian with a horrible grasp of my own gender (but inhuman nonetheless), and i prefer to be referred to with neutral language (unless you’re complimenting me, then both feminine and masculine language is greatly welcomed!! i love attention). i’m a devout yumejoshi, and love is everything... » Continue Reading
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i wanted to write this, not only for myself to document my experiences in the event i get a future therapist, but for others who may relate and may want to seek an official diagnosis or learn more or… really whatever. for context, i am an adhd + autistic asian american (specifically vietnamese-cantonese) in a very liberal state in america, and i consider myself a “quiet” borderline. your lived exp... » Continue Reading
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i don’t even care about keeping track anymore. it’s just whatever the hell at this point LMAOO. i’m thinking of making other blog posts besides my diary entries that are more like vent posts than anything. live a more fruitful life and spread knowledge on the internet space, you could say. i’m less insightful than people claim i am. there’s so much work piling up i don’t even know where to begin. ... » Continue Reading
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i dont even know how to feel anymore but straight up ambivalence??? it’s so horribly confusing… i don’t understand it. event for club went well today! minus the fact that i saw two people i didn’t like. fun i’m not the nicest person, far from it. i’m a major fucking asshole to people i don’t like but i’m super passive aggressive about it or i’ll vague around others. i don’t see the need to maintai... » Continue Reading
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if i start breaking out in fucking hives again im going to ACTUALLY end it. my schedule from now until december looks like hell vomited on a college student. i should kill myself i feel so much worse than i did yesterday... drawing with my friends on aggie made me so so happy, but now that i'm not with them i feel so empty. i feel like i've always been this way. i don't even know what to do with m... » Continue Reading
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there's not really a lot i can say anymore except i'm constantly working on assignments. nothing gives me joy anymore lmfaooo and i feel so lonely, so desperately lonely and it's hard to be alive anymore. i think i'm stuck like this forever. there's just so much i need to do, there's so much i WANT to do. but i'm so horribly mentally ill and whenever i wake up i realize just how alone i am. not ev... » Continue Reading
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i shouldnt had that much to drink fuckk my headsuqgh i got upset and leftbcsll with my friends earlybefwuse ingot jealous and i hatw hatw myself for it why does no one think about me why don’t they think about me nearly as kuch as i rhink aboug them please domf lewbw me im scared i’ll grovel on my knees if you wqnr please i csnt stand it what do i need to do to get into your good graces again i’l... » Continue Reading
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i quite literally don't give a fuck that i missed yesterday's blogging because i passed the hell out last night. i'm sooo fucking exhausted and i wanna drop out so bad (but don't tell me to seriously drop out because i'll get mad because i'm fucking working hard to get where i am) and i'm fucking hungry and i'm STARVING i hate this shit i hate everything my friend didn't come to class today and ou... » Continue Reading
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MY FUCKING DIVIDER IS GONE AND I GOT INTO BED FUCCCKKKKKK AUAUGAUAUYAHHHU I LIKED THATNONE TOO UAAGHHUYYH ok it’s not that big of a deal i didn’t lock in for shit i only worked on my new merch item that i’ll hopefully be done with soon. some loser called me an ugly ass bitch today like excuse me??? i’m NOT ugly!!! i’m starting to lose my patience with a lot of people and starting to get evil (psyc... » Continue Reading
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class was uneventful blah blah blah what is new 💔💔💔 i’ve decided to make officially start making merch for myself to display!! so i’ll probably be making a wooacry order soon, and get myself some subvoid and puchcrow merch… maybe some nightlights merch too. if you don’t understand any of these terms looking at them it’s ok i’m thinking of making an introduction to my selfships blog post soon… or a... » Continue Reading
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I LOCKED IN!!!! i managed to get progress for my project done for class, and it turned out fine!! and i got an answer back from my professor thank god, not doing my final on giulia tolfana to my disappointment, but i will truck through!!! i got a haircut today too! no pics cause i care about internet safety but it’s quite cute!! it feels nicer too, and i can actually see (i like having blunt bangs... » Continue Reading
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well! i honestly didn't expect my last blog entry to have kicked off that much! though, i'd say that was probably attributed to accidentally putting it in the life category rather than the blogging category. can you tell i haven't used this platform in a while? anyways, talked to someone new for the first time through here, rather than just having a conglomerate of my friends here (which i do love... » Continue Reading
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