DAY 13 >w0

i dont even know how to feel anymore but straight up ambivalence??? it’s so horribly confusing… i don’t understand it. event for club went well today! minus the fact that i saw two people i didn’t like. fun

i’m not the nicest person, far from it. i’m a major fucking asshole to people i don’t like but i’m super passive aggressive about it or i’ll vague around others. i don’t see the need to maintain a facade of niceties to people i don’t care or want to interact with. i don’t have much empathy in the first place unless it’s with people i’m close with.

that being said. this one guy is pissing me tf off and i really don’t care if he’s sad by how uncomfortable i am around him.

school has been. tumultuous as usual, got a 79/100 on my exam today, and busy with schoolwork as per usual. because i’m so busy, i don’t really feel the need to eat. i’ve been intentionally starving myself throughout the day to incentivize myself into working more before i can’t take it anymore. it’s not healthy, i admit. but its worked for me before, so i don’t particularly mind it that much.

i can’t wait to get most of my work done, that way i can pour my attention towards drawing, writing, and my beloveds (including my fps in this! i love them so much).