hello, my name is peyton!! i also go by todd or helix in most other online spaces : ) im a teenage... thing??? i like anime and edgy stufff... im so cool i like 80s, 90s, and 2000s stuff INTERACT: epic gamers, autistic people (they are more relatable), scene kids, emos, people who like frutiger aero/metro, people who like the same music i do DO NOT INTERACT: hateful people (homophobes, transphobes... » Continue Reading
my favorite part of the mcs a life less ordinary music video is when justin looks like hes trying to resist kissing everyone a life less GAY » Continue Reading
its kind of weird to put into words. i was born as a girl, but im kind of whatever?? i thought i was transgender in elementary / middle school, but then my parents grounded me, took me out of school, and got all republican and stuff. i guess if that didnt happen i never would have become a christian, but i still have trouble with my gender. the way i see it, me being born a girl has nothing to do... » Continue Reading
im not even gonna pretend to be nice to these tcc people anymore. i dont get how people could see the literal scum of the earth and think "theyre my HERO!!! its so cool that they shot all those kids!!!" like what the actual fuck is wrong with you??? if you're a "fan" of any kind of school shooters or murderers or anything like that, either get serious mental help or get the fuck off my page. » Continue Reading
im constantly surrounded by people and my friends all care about me but i just feel so alone and empty and useless. i can barely get my schoolwork done and my parents keep getting mad at me for it. i feel like i cant even think. theres music constantly playing in my head that i cant turn off, and when i tell my parents about it, they say "just make it stop". i cant. its been this way since i was a... » Continue Reading
it feels so weird to finally have hobbies again. for a while there, the only thing i would do is lay in bed and scroll and get real hungry. but now, im eating good food, actually trying to do my homework, and i feel a lot more motivation for actually doing the things i love. i wrote a oneshot story of my OCs recently as opposed to my usual method of making stuff up in my head and never writing it ... » Continue Reading
my mom got a letter in the mail today that said she had to renew my scholarship thing i had last year, its like for people who live in bad school districts. i go to a private christian school near my old house, but we moved far away into a really nice area in june, so we dont know how renewing the thing will go or if ill still be able to have it. that put us on the topic of me possibly going to my... » Continue Reading
some account that was disguised as a person from gaza asking for help for their family commented on my blog post saying their blog has donation links and i checked their blog and every single post is just gore. i saw a dead baby with its organs out. im so fucking tired of this website. i dont want to see that shit every time i go on here like when i was 13. these people are fucking disgusting tryi... » Continue Reading
i really cant tell. one time in science class during a mini whiteboard review game i kept getting answers right and a bunch of girls started giggling whenever i held up my whiteboard. in band today, i was sitting on the floor in the percussion section and reading a book and then 2 boys sitting in the trumpet section in front of me turned around and pointed and whispered to each other and i dont kn... » Continue Reading
im gonna try to get my first job this summer!! theres a coffee shop down the street that me and my parents love, and i bet i could get them a discount if i work there. plus it seems not super stressful since its a pretty small place that just has a drive thru. im gonna be 15 and a half this month, so i can get my temps!!! im gonna try to get my drivers license when i turn 16, which might suck beca... » Continue Reading
like im not good at talking to people online in the first place, but when i message people i have friended on here i feel like im being creepy D: like specifically when i message someone first... and i dont think its creepy at all when other people message me first, its just when i do it. i gotta get better at talking to people » Continue Reading