the worst part about not having many friends is wanting to share your interests with someone and realizing that there's no one to share it with. it also feels unfair to ask your friends if you can share with them, and they just don't match the energy. i don't want to force my friends to be into the things i'm into, but its so painful wanting to share something and no one caring. its the quickest w... » Continue Reading
i cant handle watching people leave. sometimes you just drift apart from people, other times there's a reason to move on. i moved around a lot, so i got used to people saying "oh yeah, we'll still be friends" only for it to never really happen. sometimes they genuinely mean it, other times they dont want to make me sad. but it does make me sad. it makes me sad when i can hear the lie slip out thei... » Continue Reading
TW//Vent sometimes i worry im a burden to the people i care about. the last thing i want is to be a burden. id rather isolate myself from everyone than be a burden. i worry i dont care about the people i love the right way. i do care about the people in my life deeply and i worry about being too much. im always either too affectionate, or not affectionate enough. if someone hints that i might not... » Continue Reading
i like the idea of living now, but i don't know how to get out of surviving. it seems like everything you hear nowadays is that living is impossible. it really disheartening, but i want to believe i can overcome it. im a very simple person, i dont need many things to be happy. im satisfied observing the world around me and its beauty. everyone says i need to be at a certain point in life. everyone... » Continue Reading