╭┈┈the worst part┈┈╮

the worst part about not having many friends is wanting to share your interests with someone and realizing that there's no one to share it with. it also feels unfair to ask your friends if you can share with them, and they just don't match the energy. i don't want to force my friends to be into the things i'm into, but its so painful wanting to share something and no one caring. its the quickest way to make me regress into those child-like memories where i'm alone. i feel so vulnerable being stuck feeling like that, but i won't speak up because i don't want to make it a big deal or sound like a child.

a short vent, but one thats been eating at me for months