ₓ˚. ୭ ˚○◦˚pretty rocks˚◦○˚ ୧ .˚ₓ

i like the idea of living now, but i don't know how to get out of surviving. it seems like everything you hear nowadays is that living is impossible. it really disheartening, but i want to believe i can overcome it. im a very simple person, i dont need many things to be happy. im satisfied observing the world around me and its beauty.

everyone says i need to be at a certain point in life. everyone is always competing with me and shoving their success in my face. ive never believed i was better than anyone. why do people need to be better than anyone? i never wanted to play this weird success speed run game. i just wanted to play with dandelions. i wanted to find pretty rocks and build legos. i wanted to sunbathe in the grass and try a pomegranate.

ive been sick for the last month. i want to make my life better, but i have no energy. i try to relax, but i stress myself out because im not being productive. im feeling pretty doom and gloom today about it. ill try to do some homework, and not be too mean to myself about napping a lot.