hiiiii. i always feel so silly when i get on here and write abt whatever i’m feeling. but at the same time i feel so relieved. i think it’s really helped me calm down and just enjoy life. i’m not huge for finding new hobbies but this has rlly been something i’ve enjoyed, if u couldn’t have told from this being my third one in 24 hours lol. but i want to start writing abt the more positive aspect o... » Continue Reading
hello again. i miss us. not rlly tho, just the thought of us. idk if i could do it again if we tried. it feels weird just talking to u. idk. i might say fuck it and text u again. just to see how it goes, im a lil tipsy rn lol. hopefully u wont notice. » Continue Reading
hi everyone!! i hope ur all doing well. ive been better thankfully. im not great yet, but there's always room for improvement. ive been taking life as a whole piece by piece recently, not really worrying abt a ton rn. and i might keep doing that bc its been helping. but the other night i went to the movies w the one new girl, shes super sweet. i admire her so much. im seeing her again soon too so ... » Continue Reading
hi everyone. merry christmas!! i’m here to give a quick update on my life and everything.so a couple nights ago for my boys birthday we got wasted and i ended up adding t back and we were talking for a couple hours. ik it was dumb, but in my defense i wasn’t sober lol. but we’ve been consistently been talking for a couple days now. nothing too bad. but some good news, a couple of my friends have b... » Continue Reading
hey everyone. i would like to start this by apologizing. not just to myself but to those who have it so much worse than i do. i admire each and everyone here and u all i’ve a purpose and a reason to be alive. i love u all. if anyone ever needs to talk pls just message me » Continue Reading
fuck it im doing it rn. that sounds bad w/out context so if u need it read my post before this pls. but the next time u made me want to be dead was the first couple of days in november. we had just gone trick or treating tg, i hated every moment of that, just bc u were with all ur friends, and i’m just not social and u didn’t talk to me so it was so awkward. and i remember u telling ppl we were on... » Continue Reading
the night we first ended things was the hardest night of my life. i remember asking u what we were while at work, i only asked bc i could feel us being distant and weird. and i remember calling noah the night before and he said that he asked u and u said u didn’t know what u wanted. it broke me. and u had no clue. so i finally has the courage to ask u. and i could recall everything u said to me, w... » Continue Reading
hey everybody!!! i know i said i was trying to steer away from the more negative side of my life and talking abt my ex but that’s kinda hard when u see them everyday! so here i am again. i almost added u the other day trin, i typed ur name took and i took a screenshot just to show noah lol, he asked me if i was autistic, not funny. but the worst part was i was completely sober when i did it, so wh... » Continue Reading
it’s me again. ik ur never gonna see this so im glad i can speak my mind on whatever i want to. but u also will never be able to respond to all the questions i have which sucks. but i’ll be okay; at least i hope. i’ve been going through a lot recently and i want u to be proud of me for what i’ve overcame bc of u. but i still just can’t help but wonder if i was just an option for u. did u ever want... » Continue Reading
hi again. i miss u still. i miss us. well i don’t even rlly miss u, i miss being happy like i was w u. u made me turn my life around, i was such a bum w/out u; and now that ur gone i can feel myself slowly falling back into that abyss that i was once in. the night we ended things was hardest night of my life. bc i tried my best to keep us, i did everything i could and it still wasn’t enough for u.... » Continue Reading
to t I apologize. I apologize for the way things ended between us, it was not my intent to leave us with bad blood. U were my everything, and yet u failed to realize that; u failed me. I spoke of us name as royalty when we were tg, and now? like u meant nothing, like u are nothing. bc u aren’t to me anymore. my once admirement and love for u has finally turned to resentment and disappointment. For... » Continue Reading