idiotic

hi again. i miss u still. i miss us. well i don’t even rlly miss u, i miss being happy like i was w u. u made me turn my life around, i was such a bum w/out u; and now that ur gone i can feel myself slowly falling back into that abyss that i was once in. the night we ended things was hardest night of my life. bc i tried my best to keep us, i did everything i could and it still wasn’t enough for u. it genuinely is embarrassing. that last month of us was so hard on me. i cried for nights on end bc of u. just for u. and now thinking of it i sound stupid; i probably am. i think i am. i’ve tried talking to other girls. they’re just not u tho. we clicked perfectly. i remember our first date when we got ice cream and talked in ur car for hours on end. until ur mom called and asked when u were gonna be home. we didn’t even kiss. we just talked. and i wish we would’ve just talked things out like we talked that night. i just wish i had gotten some closure from u trin.

why did u do this to me<\3