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Its hell to listen to a conversation where someone is clearly not knowing what youre trying to say but you know that they won't put any effort into understanding. It turns into a lecture and just balls up until theres nothing of substance exchanged, everything youve argued for before just floats away. Then youll have that dumb conversation again. Happens with parents, its like they have a script i... » Continue Reading
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Had an argument with my dad. It was over something stupid, forgot something to bring and he got upset and I kind of shut down cause he raised his voice. Tried to talk to him and ended up telling me how I tend to shutdown and not respond during an argument which annoys him. Thing is he used to get really really mad at stuff, little stuff. I think because he's gotten better I've been more relaxed bu... » Continue Reading
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I was at a cafe with my friends studying, when it was getting late I was like hey time to go now, cause one of my friends kept putting it off cause they were working. They snapped and were like "can I finish" and it wasn't really a loud shout but it was strict and it made me feel bad. I ended up lagging behind the group and crying a bit on my own. Afterwards I was awkward but I feel like if I did ... » Continue Reading
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Doesn't matter how hard I work, I'll always be beat by natural talent and others version of hard work. Some one I know is a master at piano whilst also being amazing at physics and math, I can work 3 hours to achieve half of what they do in 30 minutes. Sick and tired of it, and my own jealousy is gross. I don't like feeling so pathetic, it's unfair but also not wrong I suppose. I wish I did more ... » Continue Reading
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How to run?! feels so weird asking but I literally cant?! My back hurts afterwards and I honestly get tired fast, AHHH i hate not being good at things » Continue Reading
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No one ever wants to talk to me, no one ever texts me regularly and I hate it. I know some of my friends in uni are busy but there's like a wall that just won't get knocked down. I want someone to call or text first but no one does and it's so frustrating all the time. What else do I do? I can't just read all day or rot on my phone. No one invites me out, maybe I'm not pretty enough or maybe I'm s... » Continue Reading
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I really cant deal with it properly. I'll put all my time into arranging hangouts and making time for others and then they dont text me. Don't even respond. I know we're busy but still, a hi? No. A 'sorry im busy'? No. It's all or nothing and I get nothing no matter what. Why do i NEED to be the one to reach out, TALK to me. Please acknowledge our friendship?! Maybe I'm delusional chasing after a ... » Continue Reading
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Trigger warning: death/suicide? I dont know if its normal, I mean everyone probably has this thought; I think its comforting to know how easy it is to take your own life. It's not something grand or a long process, and it's obviously never my first thought. However, in the back of my mind when the day is rough and I can't find home, it calms me down knowing that if anything were to truly break me ... » Continue Reading
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I knew it would be difficult, I just didn't expect to need to mature so fast. I always end up feeling awful about something, grades or friendships idk. The thing is, everyone is better than me in some way and I can't let it go, such an egotistical thing to break over that but yeah. I mean, I just don't want this to the peak of my life, and I dont know really. Stuff always stuff cramming into my h... » Continue Reading
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So sad, nothing sweet to eat. After pilates I need smth sweet, its only right! » Continue Reading
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I can't believe that slowly me and my family will meet less and less. My sister won't be the first person I greet in the morning and we'll all barely know anything about one another. The house won't be full like it used to even when we're all there, because the same people will never be in it again. I won't be there to catch the moments where my siblings change or learn something new, they'll hav... » Continue Reading
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I want to be in love, everything just falls flat though. Life shouldn't be about being in love but when you're not being anything what else is there. I want to be yearned for but at the same time I doubt many would want my presence. Maybe I'd be a cruel lover, I can picture myself being someone that a lover ends up despising for whatever reason. There's so much that could go wrong, so little that... » Continue Reading
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