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ex-friends till the end

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so it's been exactly a month. i know you read the message i gave you on the 5th, even though I gave it on the 4th.  i saw a yellow checkered car in real life. but i didn't ride on the back of it. i did ride a waymo though. I didn't cast a spell over the west. Maybe over the south? I'm staying in the south of LA, after all. and well, home is to the south of the world? You're there now, south of the... » Continue Reading

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the boys in the band

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i miss them :(( i miss my band and i rly want us to get better but we actually are bc we are actually practicing???? but now vacation and i feel like I'm not doing enough and i need to do more because this is suprr serious and if we aren't that bad we could actually have a shot?? ughhhhhhh okay i need to get serious. and keep them serious too. they are though so. okay. yeah.  summertime ❀️❀️❀️❀️ w... » Continue Reading

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just yesterday, south of LA

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I'm sorry. i'm sorry that i think so much, and I'm sorry dad for liking my head up in the clouds. sorry mom, too. for being me. bang the doldrums, huh? ex friends till the end. I guess it was always a prophecy after all. you're wrong. (after all). so silly how you can listen to the aame song and give it a complete new meaning. my life is so good lately, honestly. i love music. i love listening to ... » Continue Reading

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This never meant nothing to you.

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Tonight has been amazing. Probably one of the best nights of my life. MCR LA night 1 has been a blessing. how fun was it to be in the pit! How lucky was I to get barricade! It was all worth it. All the suffering, all the pain. Mikey gave me a fist bump! What could be better? I'm still ecstatic about it.  My body hurts but it's fine. It was all worth it!  I was thinking about you. Well, at the conc... » Continue Reading

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lies

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I'm a liar just like you. except everyone knows you're a liar and no one is aware how bad of a liar i am too. i guess that's a secret I'll keep to myself, unlike you. My lie may become annoying...but I'll stand by it. I really didn't expect you to be so shitty, man. Sometimes I miss you, but I guess I remember the past version of you, who you used to be. Was my love enough to change you completely... » Continue Reading

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happy days that won't be coming back

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remember the last time you were at my place? it was so fun. We talked about making a drink next time, but there will never be next time. Not anymore. we wanted it to be lime green and didn't know what to add to it. I found the perfect drink and perfect color, but I can't really tell you about it anymore, can I? it's so silly. You would've loved this.  I'll remember everything that we didn't get to... » Continue Reading

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for a minute there, i lost myself

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i just realized you haven't been seeing my stories anymore. funny though, you watched them all the two weeks that YOU didn't talk to me, and now suddenly it's you who's retreating? funny. i wonder since when. I've been too busy and occupied, and just like i expected, i haven't been thinking much about you. i guess i just remembered because your icon used to be the first one to pop-up, and i kust t... » Continue Reading

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this house doesn't have ghosts, just memories

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i guess I'm always the one doomed to remember. is that why i long so bad for forgetfulness? all i want to do it forget, but I'm the one who carries all the memories. Not even just now, but always. I just ate a fry and remembered all about Japan. It was such a nice trip. Amazing. I spent most of my days with someone who ended up betraying me in the end. I no longer miss him, but taking him out of m... » Continue Reading

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ill always look out for you

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i just wanted to be your friend, forever. i wish we could start over, and i wish i wouldn't fall for you this time. and it just makes me angry. what the fuck are you posting? you see me as someone who "can't victimize themselves anymore" are you fucking joking? you're a heartless monster, you do know that? "salvage what's left of our friendship" what's left? these two weeks, you've treated me like... » Continue Reading

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wondering

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you finally said something. i don't have the guts to read it yet, so I'll wait until I'm fully free later tonight, in case i feel bad, or cry, or something like that. I don't really feel happy, I've already spent the last two weeks letting you go, since i assumed you hated me. well, whatever. I guess I'll know what you have to say later.  » Continue Reading

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you come back in every dream i have

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I'm just so conflicted. you were in my dream but I can't remember it at all. I just remember that gaze on your eyes. what does it mean? why can't i remember? why does it hurt?  yesterday you sent me that video. why do we still keep a streak? the video was basically "I don't hate you, I'm not praying for your downfall, wishing the best for you always" it's the first coherent thing you've sent. but ... » Continue Reading

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you had my heart and soul

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i hate you. sometimes i woke up with an anguish in my chest. i feel breathless, and my chest hurts. it's so scary, i feel like I'll diee. But I've felt this before and I know ai won't. still. I hate you. I know it's because of you I feel like this. I can't wait to be far away from you. I can't wait to forget about you.  » Continue Reading

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