"crying over my now ex bf. "
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Category: Writing and Poetry
Dear -.B, How dare you? How dare you think this was easy? Easy at all? Walking out on me like that. Then treating me like i dont exist? This isnt fair. But then again, nothings fair is it? I could continue with this. This letter i mean. But it doesnt matter does it. Nothing matters if it is not for the desire of you. I hear the poems you write. Ive cherished them dearly. Kept them close. The one ... » Continue Reading
Category: Writing and Poetry
Dear X.B, My heart, Oh it breaks when i see you with someone else. Acting so happy with a complete stranger. Why be so happy with them but not me? I know you better. So why pick them? They know nothing about you. I remember every little detail you tell me, Every detail about your life, So why did you pick them over me? Was i too proud with you? Was i too caring? Would you rather me hate you? Trea... » Continue Reading
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What is love? Ive been told its a feeling of attraction, a way one feels about a lover. But how can i tell when i feel like this towards all my friends? Am i then in love with them? No, i cant be can i? Its impossible. Feeling that way about someone. But yet i cant shake my mind from the feelings. Though they broke my heart in two, I feel more mesmerized then i did before. But why? Is it his voice... » Continue Reading
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Do you love me? If i get good grades, will that make you love me? When i am in tears, or the brink of failing my classes, am i then not deserving of your love? What will make you love me!? "I wanna be like you, i wanna say that i can. I wanna be the person that you think that i am." I play this song on repeat. It makes me forget about the horrors of being your child. I am your child am i not? "Jus... » Continue Reading
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Subject to my heart, Doused in kerosene by those wh o believed in me. In line for standing hours, For one simple prescription that will be used but not by its user. I feel guilt for my disgusting ways. The times i stay up popping more than i should. The times i stay up sculling down medicine that isnt my own. All for a single high. The moments i can feel not myself. » Continue Reading
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A letter to myself. Why? Why do you do this to yourself? Why do you fall in and out of love? Why must you feel so hard, but hurt so bad? Your heart, it yearns for love, but it rejects it when it could be hurt. "Cut, we'll feel better." But will i ever? Because suddenly im alone. And i have to re-adjust to the coldness of loneliness. I know her well. She does too. Never did i expect to see her ... » Continue Reading
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Dear Xio , Here is the aftermath of our undoing. "He doesnt love you anymore." I hear my brain say, but surely im wrong. "He thinks your insufferable." Impossible, i reply back. If he did,he » Continue Reading
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Obsessions . "Why are you like this?" i havent got the clue my love, but for you ill figure it out. If thats what it takes for you to love me, ill bend and break into a shape you desire. Ill become someone im not for you. If you are attracted to something i dont have Do you want me to become that? If i am not like someone else, Should i act like them? How do i make you love me » Continue Reading
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When my stomach is empty, so is my brain. When it is full, i cant seem to think straight. My head seems to fill up with so many thoughts, suddenly my only escape becomes the one i try to stay clean from the most. But id rather die then tell you whats happening in my mind. For if you know, youll be concerned. And ill have to give a reason for my own sadness. But sometimes i dont have one. W » Continue Reading
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Unlovable. Maybe im unlovable. Maybe my heart is one of disease and torture, not one of love as i had once thought. Perhaps i dont make people as ecstatic as they do me. Maybe i am a living tumor. The cancer living in your heart. I am pulled away from you, but i come back every time. For if i leave you, i feel i am no different to those who left me once before. My own heart is in such pai » Continue Reading
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Comfort. I met someone i never thought id meet. I found someone whos cared like no other could. His heart matches mine perfectly, two pieces of the same puzzle. His eyes are two i could stare into for hours, a deep sea of beauty i could never come out from. His face, soft and handsome, it makes my stomach twist and turn when he stares at me with his stunning eyes. His arms entrap me in a never end » Continue Reading
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Category: Writing and Poetry
I have a heart of stone; strong, protected and hard. I keep it close to me, locked in a cage of worry and fear. I dont dare let anyone inside, not even myself. The constant pain of being hurt looms over my head, reminding me of the mistakes of my past. I remember them well. I have a heart of stone; Strong, protected and hard. I try to keep it close to me, constantly locked in my own cage of fear ... » Continue Reading
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