yeah like the title says it's been a while since i wrote in here. but i have to talk about a few things. first, i found out today that my one friend suffered from an ed. i also remembered that he self harmed in the past. i love that guy. if i could take away all his pain i would. his pain hurts so badly. it's the same with all my friends. if i could take away all their pain and suffering, i would ... » Continue Reading
i am soooo excited!!! it's already pretty popular so i have no idea how i didn't find it before. it's called 'jeff woods the killer'. i loveee the au even tho it makes me sad knowing what happens : < i also found another webtoon that is set in my home town!!!! that's actually crazy because my town isn't like a big city or anything so i was shocked :O it's also supernatural, gay, amazing art style,... » Continue Reading
i literally have ONE. ONE CISHET GUY FRIEND. and i thought we were friends. but now he is being weird and i am very freaked out and upset. i literally sent him a heart like " » Continue Reading
:3c do you think ftm surgery is cheaper in thailand? thailand has the most gender affirming surgeries performed each year out of all the countries :3 and i think iran or iraq is second i forget?? idk i just know that the quran apparently doesn't prohibit trans ppl just gay ppl? sorry if i'm wrong let me know D: i want to be a boy. i want to look like a boy. i want to sound like a boy. i want ppl t... » Continue Reading
i literally can't stop thinking about him like why can't my brain STFU. it was easter and i just realized today he didn't even reach out. last year he reached out first which made me sooo happy. and then he sent me a picture of himself wearing a flower crown even tho he said he hated that picture. it made my whole day :)) this easter was still amazing this year but i miss him. i genuinely can't fi... » Continue Reading
uhhhh i might just copy a lot of this from my caard XD dni: if you're racist, homophobic, xenophobic, transphobic, sexist, etc (i'm sure i missed some). ik this probs won't stop you from commenting but i will block you so don't waste your time. if you support zoophilia or being "transrace" gtfo if you defend andrew tate GTFO LMFAOOO if you romanticize obsessive love irl or are anti-recovery gtfo i... » Continue Reading
tomorrow is my last day of break but i have to get up early to go visit a college :( and guess fucking what. it's the EXACT college he's going to. i'm so pissed off rn it's unbelievable. but my college counselor recommended it and other ppl keep recommending it so fuck it i'm visiting :/ i am soooo not looking forward to this it's literally going to be painful i can tell :( ALSO MY TWO FRIENDS ARE... » Continue Reading
i miss that stupid mf. i miss how he talked about homestuck and mcr almost constantly. i love how he wanted to share all the things that made him happy with me. i like that he let me befriend his cousin who is his closest friend. i love that he went to homecoming with me. i'm so so sorry i messed it up. i don't believe in changing the past but if i did i would go back and stop my stupid blind self... » Continue Reading
so pretty much i need new shorts for the summer and i had to go shopping with my mom :/ and everything fits me in such a wrong way. i only have one pair of shorts i really like to wear rn and they're huge men's cargo shorts. i also have running shorts which i love. but they're shorter and so i know they make ppl see me as a girl. idec tho they make me comfortable so i'm wearing them. i just felt r... » Continue Reading
i hate myself. i hate bpd. i hate life. i hate social anxiety. i hate depression. i hate dissociation and derealization. i hate all of it. it sucks balls. but i love school (mostly) and i love my dog and i love my family and i love my friends and i love my goals and dreams. idc if that sounds cheesy it makes me happy. i am amazing and i'm trying my best. ily. ilyt » Continue Reading
UGHHHHHAAAAAARGGGGHHHHHH. i fucking hate college >:(( it's so stupiddddd. plus i'm kinda reaching for like yale and shit so it's hardddd :(( and i need a full scholarship so it's even worse plus i'm super anxious :( icon for hire is my BBYGIRLLLL. idc if they're "christian" associated or whatever flyleaf is also "christian" associated and they are awesome ASF. i don't discriminate. hmmm i kinda wa... » Continue Reading
i always get so emotionally invested in these posts lmaoooo. this week has been good. awesome even. LMFAOOOOOO. i just convinced my friend i was in love with a 28 yo i met on reddit and that i sent him pics of myself in cat ears and vids of me meowing HAHAHA. i literally cannot anymore XD anywayyy. like i was saying it's awesome!! i have so many friends that like me and love me even. things are al... » Continue Reading