man,,,,, idk!!! i feel like when i'm not splitting, i have to uphold this,,,,,,,, image of myself. that i'm a good person. i have responsibilities. i have people i care about. and caring about them isn't a burden, but splitting is such a freeing feeling. i hate it and,,, i don't think i love it. but i love it. because when i split, i don't have to care about feeling responsible or obligated to tak... » Continue Reading
very sad tonight and i don't understand why :( i don't ever understand myself. nothing bad happened today, my brain just,,,, wants to make it bad. i tried my best to be productive and alleviate my depressive symptoms but i think it just made me feel worse; the fact that no matter how hard i try to be a good person, a functioning member of society, i feel like a pile of dog shit at the end of the d... » Continue Reading
""These are your friends from childhood, through youth Who goaded you on, demanded more proof Withdrawal pain is hard, it can do you right in So distorted and thin, distorted and thin Where will it end? Where will it end? Where will it end? Whe » Continue Reading
I hear the drums echoing tonight But she hears only whispers of some quiet conversation She's coming in, 12:30 flight The moonlit wings reflect the stars that guide me towards salvation I stopped an old man along the way » Continue Reading