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"singing songs that make you slit your wrists"

20 year old former emo with a death wish

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when it rains, it pours

Category: Writing and Poetry

i feel most like myself when it rains the way the drops slap the concrete the water running over curbs, covering the toes of my boots the way the thunder screams with such certainty how it requests every one's presence to see her display of aggression or love w » Continue Reading

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maybe it wasn't meant for everyone

Category: Religion and Philosophy

sometimes i wonder if i will ever truly feel loved or free or safe   in my own room in my own body in my life » Continue Reading

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i wish

Category: Blogging

sometimes i wish i were the aesthetic type of sick, the kind you see in the movies. like, yeah maybe she's depressed and alone, but she's hot as fuck and has a cool sense of style and smokes cigarettes with the kind of mystic that gets her noticed. and she always meets someone and falls in love and everything gets better. maybe not everything has changed and things still suck to a degree but sh » Continue Reading

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i’ll gladly fail a test if it means i get the answers right

Category: Goals, Plans, Hopes

they always ask you if you have a plan on those little tests they make you take in those cold, stuffy rooms it’s easier to say  no so they don’t ask questions but honestly, i’ve had a plan for years now what they should be asking  is if i’m worried am i worried that i might slip up and do it? make a bad choice “its a permanent solution to a tem » Continue Reading

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dreaming

Category: Dreams and the Supernatural

i didn’t dream before and now i dream of you every night it’s almost like a nightmare.  but i never want to wake up.  i sleep for hours what feels like days chasing you chasing us just trying to get one more second but my eyes always open eventually and i’m always so disappoint » Continue Reading

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