October was a really good month for me. So much happened I forgot what it was like to have shit going on, but over time it started getting boring again. I was pretty happy consistently throughout the whole month, my depressive episode was still going on strong though, but this time around it didn't affect me as much. Maybe I'm getting used to it. Anyways, once things started going back to normal, ... » Continue Reading
I'm really mad and upset right now. Yesterday I asked my mom if I can go out with my friends to Malibu tomorrow, she said if I did everything I was asked today she'd think about it. This already made me mad for two reasons. One, I never go out especially with my friends. I haven't seen in my friends since last month, and it's literally summer so I feel like I should be seeing my friends more. And ... » Continue Reading
I just saw txt about two weeks ago and it was everything I had expected. I had so much fun. Luckily for me, I have four more concerts to attend to. THIS MONTH! FOUR! I cannot wait. That's all I wanted to say, I just love concerts. It's the only time where you can scream your loudest and it's actually acceptable. I have a Seventeen concert, Kcon, and Kard. Hopefully I'm able to buy Haryy Styles and... » Continue Reading
I'm seeing txt tomorrow. I'm freaking out about it. I'm so fucking excited. I don't want to sleep because I know the day is going to go by super fast. I'm so so so so so so so excited. I literally cannot wait. I'm gonna have so fun tomorrow. I can't wait! I'M SO EXCITED!!!! TOMORROW IS GOING TO BE SO MUCH FUCKING FUN!!! TOMORROW WILL BE THE BEST DAY OF MY LIFE!!! I CAN'T WAIT!! AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH!!!... » Continue Reading
So the last time I came on here I said things were getting better, well that's no longer the case anymore lol. Things have gotten pretty bad as of recently. The only good thing that has happened is I finally got an update about my new job. I start in August. I also started writing again, and I'm actually going somewhere with it. Looks like I have to face traumatic events for me to be inspired. But... » Continue Reading
Things have been getting better since last time. Summer hasn't been too bad, except I literally haven't been doing anything. Which fucking sucks because the whole point of summer is to have fun and make plans, but I've went out like three times since June. Plus, I still don't have a job so my days have been really boring. Speaking of jobs, I recently applied to the YMCA for after school programs. ... » Continue Reading
Currently not doing so hot. I haven't had a depressive episode this bad in a long time. Like, I'm not so sure how I'm gonna make it out of this one. Many things can be a reason. For one, I'm practically unemployed now. Technically my last day is next Friday, but I haven't gone to work since I've put my two week notice. But now I'm not gonna be able to have any income for a while, since I haven't r... » Continue Reading
I'm gonna quit my job on Thursday. I currently work at Wendy's, the reason why I'm gonna quit is because they keep fucking with my schedule. I just applied to Starbucks, so hopefully I get hired. If not, I'm gonna work at the YMCA for after school wrap programs. But I don't think I wanna work there just because I'm gonna have to work with kids. It's not that I don't like kids, I just prefer not to... » Continue Reading
So... hopefully I'm gonna loose my virginity soon. I've been talking to this guy for a bit now, I've known him since middle school so he's not a complete stranger. The other day I got pretty wasted (as in crossfaded) and I texted him being very straight forward. I told him "Can you just fuck me already" and he pretty much said yes. So now, I've got to decide when. I already bought condoms so this ... » Continue Reading
So I don't know if I've ever mentioned on here how much I hate school. But I hate school so much, like a lot. I never enjoyed school, I never enjoyed going to school, or learning, or the environment, nothing. So, I've never understood the appeal of choosing to go to school after I graduate high school. Because, why would I make myself go through that? I hate being in school for all 12 years, why w... » Continue Reading
I got a new doll. I got Roxxi from the "Bratz Rock Angels" line, she's pretty cute. Anyways, that's the only update I have. Nothing much has been going on, just work and school. However, I did get payed last Friday $448, pretty good check. But yeah that's about it. This withdrawal period isn't going all too well though. I mean, it is and it isn't. For a good part of my day I'll be fine, it's when ... » Continue Reading
So I might not be able to go to prom. Even if I was able, I might not be able to wear the dress I bought with my grandma's money. I don't know how to feel. I was so sure I wouldn't care about prom, I didn't even want to go to prom two years ago. But I lost a whole year of high school, I didn't go to any school events because I didn't think I'd lose a whole year of school. But now, I want to have s... » Continue Reading