My relationship with being single

I've been single for four years now, technically longer but my dating history is so sad so I'll let my sophomore year boyfriend count. Basically, I don't know what it's like to be in a relationship. For as long as I can remember, I've always been known as "the single friend" because for some reason God has cursed me to only have friends that are in somewhat serious relationship and have no single friends, it truly sucks. I love my friends, don't get me wrong, but I've never been a first option for them,  therefore, I've learned to live alone. Of course I still have my family, but I've always been with them, so just for now I won't count them. I've been alone and I've lived with myself for years, I don't know what it's like to live or share my life with someone else. And of course I would love to know what that's like. But right now, as I'm typing this, that's not gonna happen anytime soon. I've been trying to be okay with that, but it's been hard. Especially since I'm such a hopeless romantic, I have to be okay with it. Maybe because Valentine's Day just passed, therefore I've been feeling more lonely than usual. And I hate that since I kind of made peace with the fact that I won't be in a relationship or find someone anywhere in the near future. I'm trying. I'm trying to be okay with being alone. But it just gets so lonely. But like I said, I have to be okay it. I'm not gonna find the love of my life when all I do is work, stay at home, and have no friends, it's just not realistic. Hence, I have to be okay with being single. Once my life starts looking a little less sad and more productive, maybe then I can start romanticizing the idea of finding someone. But for now, my relationship with myself has got to be enough. But yet again who knows, people say they find love once they stop looking for it. I just hope this wait will be worth it.