it hasn't been a day, but i finally gathered my courage to send him a message. worst case scenario was he wouldn't read it or he'd read it and then brush it off, and then we'd never talk. what actually happened was he acknowledged my feelings (surprisingly) and we were able to talk it out a bit of what we both wanted for each other. though i'm now hesitant to admit that i like him. don't get me wr... » Continue Reading
i've been going out and socializing more after work and outside of uni, so i guess i'm making some minor improvements with my life (and health). sure, i still go back to these negative thoughts and feeling empty, but i can say that i've been dealing with it with less destructive methods. which i'm happy!! but the thing is, there's this younger guy who's a big question mark in my l » Continue Reading
oh my gosh, it's only been a couple of days in to september and there are a lot of stuff that happened to me!! where do i begin... it's gonna be a long entry, i'm pretty sure. work is still pretty shit to me, but i can (somehow) manage. though there are times where i envisioned on how i'd dramatically hand over my resignation letter or just randomly disappear one day, with no way of contacting or ... » Continue Reading
it's so odd to be creating a new social media account just to add family, some relatives, and very few and selected friends just to, i don't know, connect again (?) with people. especially after years of being socially unavailable and the girl known to "run away" a lot (i.e. deleting social media accounts and basically can only be reached if someone has my phone number). i've grown quite comfortab... » Continue Reading
i've been quite busy for the past few days. but all in all, i think i'm getting good at handling my emotions better. though i'm not sure with the way how i do it would be good for me and my mental health in the long run LOL. but anyway! that's gonna be future-me's problem. finally brought a new phone with the little savings i had. i'm so happy! it's pretty much an upgrade from my 5- » Continue Reading
this week has been really testing my patience. i was running some errands outside of work for a couple of hours, and when i got back, that annoying prick was in our office, too. my other coworker shoved a phone up to my face to let me entertain another client on the phone. okay, cool, i don't mind. part of my job, right? what irked me the most was that the client on the phone was just asking for o... » Continue Reading
my day was almost ruined because some asshole at work decided to make my day as difficult as possible. first it was all about wanting to do certain things that he wants to do because "i've been here before longer than you are, so you should know the way how things i wanted!" mind you, i'm just one month in this job and my manager didn't even tell me about this certain method he insists of doing. a... » Continue Reading
tried to be very productive today, but i ended up just rolling around on my bed, doomscrolling, and napping. i already promised myself that this weekend i would be going out and checking this cute store i found by taking the wrong route home from yesterday. guess it'll have to wait next weekend. i figured that maybe being lazy today wasn't that bad. the week was pretty rough and i was sooo tired f... » Continue Reading