"stressing myself out"
suffering from imposter syndrome and a main character complex
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Category: Jobs, Work, Careers
dude if i don’t get into one of the shows at my school next semester i may genuinely shoot myself like how badly do i suck you know??? hello? help? should i just die??? comparison is the thief of joy and boy am i unhappy » Continue Reading
Category: Jobs, Work, Careers
dude if i don’t get into one of the shows at my school next semester i may genuinely shoot myself like how badly do i suck you know??? hello? help? should i just die??? comparison is the thief of joy and boy am i unhappy » Continue Reading
Category: Blogging
like i almost impulsively brought it up when my brother brought up his mental health struggles but it felt wrong to? like we all know we’re all mentally fucked up but i’m worried everyone’s gonna think i’m stupid for taking it but i wanna try? like i’m worried it’ll “dull my sparkle” but if the sparkle is making me struggle to get out of bed what’s the point and i only want to take it short term i... » Continue Reading
Category: Romance and Relationships
regardless i’m basically over him now like even though i “like” him still technically i’m no longer making myself act a damn fool but he’s been acting Exactly the same. but not in the i don’t want our dynamic to change way but in almost a “i don’t remember you telling me you like me way” i must be tripping right? we realized he probably drank one bottle of wine’s worth of alcohol before i told him... » Continue Reading
Category: Life
so i’ve been thinking about doing this for a while but the Boy thing has sort of pushed me over the edge i realized like i embarrass myself basically impulsively on instagram and it’s truly parasocial so i deleted it. and i moved stuff around made it harder to access “social apps” so all thats on my homescreen is banking, school stuff, dropout (college humor) and youtube and tiktok i will at some... » Continue Reading
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Category: Romance and Relationships
you're such a big fat liar but you're not of course you don't like me of course! of course i just laugh too loud for real you just say weird mean stuff to me for real you just look at me like a lost puppy for fun you think I'm fucking weird you're surprised i didn't realize i liked you earlier I'm so fucking angry at myself embarrassed I'm always wrong always wrong why am i on raya? who let me on » Continue Reading
Category: Romance and Relationships
see i need you to just stop looking at me and i never want to see you again because when you're in the room i can't stop fucking LOOKING AT YOU and sneaking and you're always looking back because you drive me crazy and think it's funny to look at me like you've never been happy until you saw my face. fuck you. i wish that you would just tell me what's going on inside your head. i want you to call ... » Continue Reading
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Category: Blogging
just realized that i naturally reach for the eccentric and eclectic not only as a taste choice but because i don't fear being boring and instead fear being forgettable. which is kinda the same but the semantics evoke different meanings? » Continue Reading
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Category: Romance and Relationships
sooooooo sick and tired of feeling lonely but incredibly content with being alone » Continue Reading
Category: Romance and Relationships
sooooooo sick and tired of feeling lonely but incredibly content with being alone » Continue Reading
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Category: Jobs, Work, Careers
money can’t buy happiness but money can buy food, shelter, education I CAN’T FIND A JOB and it’s so hard to be a fulltime student by itself i’m so overwhelmed i don’t have any money i can’t save money and i feel so guilty about it but it’s because i’m basically starving myself to the point that i HAVE to buy myself food currently don’t have more than like $270 in all my bank accounts right now it... » Continue Reading
Category: Romance and Relationships
WELL ONE IS HS ONE IS MIDDLE SCHOOL WHICH IS CRAZY TO ME BECAUSE IM AN INCOMING SOPHOMORE IN COLLEGE IM JUST CRAVING AFFECTION TBH BUT LITERALLY HOW WOULD I EVEN GO ABOUT ASKING TO TALK OR HANG OUT WTF I ALSO DONT FEEL AS BEAUTIFUL AS I WAS WHEN I WAS INTERACTJNG WITH THEM SO ANY ADVICE IS WELCOME AND ENCOURAGED » Continue Reading
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