ocd is weird TW: intrusive thoughts how do i tell people that my brain literally makes up consequences for itself for literally just thinking THE THING THE BRAIN IS SUPPOSED TO DO bruh. specifically existential ocd i've been plagued with knowing my own mortality since a young age my parents left me alone a lot as a kid but i was so scared that i would never see them again and that » Continue Reading
i've transed my gender well ryan has transed my gender they/he if ur like hey this is so sudden! u would be wrong in the 4th grade i cried a lot at the fact that i couldn't be a boy and keep being perceived as gender less (ok i didn't know gender stuff but i knew people were treating me differently when i got boobs and did girl anything) so yeah i could go on about how surprise! i've never » Continue Reading
my parents come back at midnight tn after being away for 3 weeks i got like a tutorial for living alone although i'm no stranger to being ditched for vacations marsh is currently sleeping and i'm waiting for them to wake up to start vacuuming the whole house i hate the sound of vacuumes i don't have many physical overstimulation things but noise omg i asked my mom once whats something that has ... » Continue Reading
today in valorant death match i got 23 kills i started yesterday and i didn't get many good things today but that was definitely one ryan came over today while i love seeing him he brought a mess in my kitchen that i will finish dealing with tmr i worked for the cat sitting job i got today! well i didn't get the job today i just did my first few visits alone also pay day woot woot 45% of my pay w... » Continue Reading
u ever wanna talk about something but you don't wanna make that something about u but it is about u but it's not your fault but it still hurts but you should keep it on the dl and even hinting at it can look like a leap for attention or a cry of desperation but i don't want to look like either of those things i just need to say something anything but nothing comes out and i could try talking to a ... » Continue Reading
knees weak palms are sweaty marsh's spaghetti u ever feel like u can't breath or move but your body is still doing all those things it just feels like you no longer have control of it im wondering what the inside of a garbage truck is like architecture wise do the bags actually get crushed why i've gotten pretty good at rolling so that's good the drugs start to make u feel lik » Continue Reading
knees weak palms are sweaty marsh's spaghetti u ever feel like u can't breath or move but your body is still doing all those things it just feels like you no longer have control of it im wondering what the inside of a garbage truck is like architecture wise do the bags actually get crushed why i've gotten pretty good at rolling so that's good the drugs start to make u feel lik » Continue Reading
and it was all just a bad dream i take off my sleeping mask look over to my pink walls and cinderella painting my moms old computer with doodles on it doll house set to a dramatic scene i go downstairs it's sunday bagel day mochi walks in my uncle walks in hurricane walks in my dog walks in i wake up » Continue Reading
have not blogged in a hot minute! did lots of art today sometimes i go months without making shit but then i'll bust out 3 paintings in one day maybe it's synced with the moon that would be so slay uh oh moons out gotta go fuck up a dessares and paint my brain to mush! ryan is coming over today which is slay going to cook probably also guess what! girlfriend acquired! guess my blog post was li... » Continue Reading
really can't think of a title i always write the title first when i blog n e wayz these past few days have been interesting i suck at cooking but we already knew that today i managed to mess up pierogis but in the end they turned out edible so not all is lost AND I MADE BROWNIES!!! from a box but still slay! did some laundry today (which i still have to put away) and saw izzy for a bit we » Continue Reading
keeping hopes neutral saw scott pilgrim with ryan and squarely also went to block party with lya ~ bitches all around hopefully things go my way and i slay n e wayzzz short update but slay ok bye mwah !~ » Continue Reading