ok so fun fact abt me - im in an orchestra. yea it was a program on campus and i joined bc loads of essays and exams aren’t enough pressure for me apparently. so there’s some context ig! another fun fact is that my fp happens to be in the orchestra too!!! no i didn’t join just bc they were in? i genuinely didn’t know. they play bass and i play cello, and honest to god i regret not choosing to pla... » Continue Reading
i am genuinely abt to kms and the people around me couldn’t care less ^_^ WHY DO NONE OF YOU CARE ABT ME????? I TRY SO SO SO FUCKING HARD FOR YOU AND YOU JUST DONT CARE!!! MY FAMILY MY FRIENDS MY PEERS MY PROFESSORS. EVERYONE!!!!! THEY DONT EVEN REALIZE HOW FUCKING LONELY AND EMPTY I AM. WHENEVER I SAY SMTH MY WORDS GO THROUGH ONE EAR AND OUT THE OTHER. WHENEVER I GET THEM GIFTS THEY THROW THEM A... » Continue Reading
IM SO FUCKING MAD RN YOU COULD NOT COMPREHEND HOW INCREDIBLY UPSET I AM. MY PARENTS WERE BEING ASSHOLES AND MAKING FUN OF ME FOR SOMETHING I CANT CONTROL AND THEN I TEXTED MY FRIENDS IN HOPES ID FEEL BETTER!!!! IT DIDNT WORK X3!!!!!!!!! AND NOW MY FRIENDS ARE BEING ASSHOLES TOO AND IGNORING ME AND MY DADS TREATING ME LIKE A TODDLER AND OMIGOD WHAT DID I DO WRONG?!?! WHY DO NONE OF YOU CARE ABT ME?... » Continue Reading
oh my gawd i haven’t written a new blog entry in so long?!?!?! AND ITS ALREADY DECEMBER?????!?!?!?!? RAHHHHH TIME IS SUCH AN ASSHOLE I HOPE IT GETS MANGLED TO DEATH BY A POSSUM but anyway i had last week off from skewl and so i didn’t get to see my fp :( people always say absence makes the heart grow fonder. BUT HOLY SHIT HAVE I PROVED THEM RIGHT IN THE PAST WEEK. THAT STUPID BETCH WAS NOT TEXTING... » Continue Reading
i don’t know what i’m feeling rn. i’m listening to a really bad song i made in twenty minutes max, and i should be sleeping but i just don’t wanna and my phone is abt to die but i don’t feel like charging it. i’ve spent nearly ten hours on my phone all day bc i don’t feel like doing anything. ever. and i wanted to c*t but i don’t have an razor blades and didn’t feel like plucking one out of a pen... » Continue Reading
LMAOOOOO i honestly can’t tell what’s going on with me anymore. i feel like everything and nothing at the same time and everyday is exhausting. i don’t have motivation to do anything!!!! literally anything!!!! and i know when i wake up tmr everything will be fine again bc of course it will. i always think im cured of all my shit and then BOOM something goes ever so slightly wrong and everything co... » Continue Reading