i kicked over some empty cans in the corner, and saw something growing there. i'm not certain what it is. it's grey, and seems to just absorb the color from the world around it. it's really tiny, i might call an exterminator if i remember to. i thought it was a fungus, or some mushrooms or something, but the closest thing i could find were oyster mushrooms, but even then, they're less...concentrat... » Continue Reading
hey, all. my doctor prescribed me some as-needed hydroxizine recently, and i noticed it depleting faster than it should be. yesterday morning i had 75, i counted this morning and had 70. does anyone else experience loss of memory when taking these? i don’t live with any other people, so it can’t be that. i’m worried i’m taking too many. » Continue Reading
im sure this is what most of you are here for. i called someone the other day, talked to her about what was happening. one of those control people you guys are telling me to contact all the time. she kept me on the line for a while. kept putting me on hold, all of that. eventually she started asking invasive questions, and i hung up. what exterminator asks if i'm feeling hopeless? whatever. i kne... » Continue Reading
anyone else kind of miss highschool? not the obvious points, but it was nice to be able to have a structured day, then come home and have a homecooked meal. obviously my experiences arent universal, but i miss it. » Continue Reading
i like the contrast between people’s favorite songs and their favorite bands. mine’s Viagra Boys, but my favorite song is Dumb by Nirvana » Continue Reading
it mentioned her. i think. i dont think i told it about her. i couldnt have. i had no reason to. my mother and i havent talked in a while. but it keeps asking questions. i dont know why. why does it care. i dont care about her. why does it want me to care. does it just want to hurt me? i feel nothing for my mother. i feel nothing for her. it just keeps asking questions and im running out of answer... » Continue Reading
i tried doing more art stuff, but it wouldn’t post. i ended up giving up on that front. it was nice, for a while. but then my dreams started getting more vivid. after my relapse. it got worse. not my mental health, or something, i’ve been in a bit of a plateau. i mean the thing. the growth, or whatever. it’s gotten worse. not bigger. it’s stayed roughly the same size, from what i’ve seen, about th... » Continue Reading
if this doesn't work im giving up. this is her. i didn't start dreaming her until the other month. i don't know her name, since most of the time in my dreams, i barely bother to talk to her. » Continue Reading
it wont let me post her. i don't know what the problem is. if you see fifteen random uploads, it's because i keep trying to post her. i don't know what to do. maybe make a twitter? but that websites going down the shitter. do people still use tumblr? » Continue Reading