Yesterday I went to see the fireworks for my boyfriend and like, I dont know how to describe it other than its like...I don't think my minds ever been clearer than in that moment. its like the whole universe was stopped for us. Ive had a turbulent life and for as long as I can remember Ive always been on edge. when I'm with him all of the worry evaporates. I havent been this relaxed since before I... » Continue Reading
` So y;all...I have this guy friend, well call him Chad. This is a fake name but his name might as well be Chad because his real one is just as cartoonishly masculine and generic. I've known him » Continue Reading
11/13/2023 today marks 2 weeks on estrogen! The small mental and physical changes i noticed have slowed down lately and im kind of just used to the state of mental clarity ive entered since starting estrogen and blocking testosterone. In other news, for the past several months ive been trying desperately to find an apartment with my dad constantly threatening to force me to go to a homeless shelte... » Continue Reading
You guys....as of 2 days ago, ive officially started my medical transition! Ill be trying to document my progress as much as possible on here as well. To start off im taking 50 milligrams of spironolactone and 2 milligrams of estradiol, both of which im taking twice daily. Estradiol is a feminizing hormone that will help me develop the ideal secondary sex characteristics, whereas spironolactone bl... » Continue Reading
9/10/23 Its been a long time since i logged onto here but just wanted to give a quick life update. Ive since moved back in with my parents and my dog is almost a YEAR old which blows my mind but anywho. Im moving back to the city before the end of the month and i want to be more active on here. Im starting Hrt a the end of the month and id love to document that entire process for my small captive... » Continue Reading
AAAAHHH OMG ok, so the barbie movie was amazing and i dont even know where to begin. But as a transfemme nonbnary person i felt so....conencted? i guess thats the word, with every woman in the theater. It was genunely a healing experience for me. Greta Gerwg never dissapoints and im so happy to be alive right now so i can tell my children i saw this in theaters. » Continue Reading
7/3/2023 lately have been obsessed with playboy and all the secrets of the mansion. Hugh Heffner is the actual devil and listening to Holly and Bridgets podcast is so eye opening. I feel for Kendra and i hope shes healed from her time at the mansion. She was only 19 in season 1 of the girls next door!!! » Continue Reading
Today i totally shut down my dads gaslighting, my dad told me "I dont want to hear it" when i was trying to explain to him why something he did was hurtful to me. I then got upset and told him he was being dismissive. To which he was like "you need to not take things like that i wasnt being dismissive" and i was like "Theres no other way to take the phrase i dont want to hear it other than dismiss... » Continue Reading
Today me and my dumbass friends lit up fireworks and then got high and forced them to do makeup. Oh and i forced them to join spacehey follow B1G R3D and Passdadutch13 » Continue Reading
so like yesterday i went to go hang out with my beste outside (we were getting high in a park) and like...it was weirdly foggy, albiet at the same time sunny. We def made some comments about how strange it was and even stranger so that no one else was saying anything about it. Flash forward to earlier today, were sitting in her car lowkey freaking out about how foggy it was and how no one else see... » Continue Reading
ok so like yaayyy m back at my parents but kinda not yay bc my dad is crazy but i felt the need to update ths blog but i cant even think of what to type BC I HAVE A TOOTHACHE AND IM SO PSSED AT EVERYTHING AND LIKE WHY IS IT SO HARD TO CALL A DENTIST???? BUT LIKE WHATEVER MY APPOINTMENT IS AT 5 EVRYTHING IS JUST SO ANNOYING » Continue Reading