"i want a boyfriend so bad"
16
Last active:
SpaceHey Blog URL:
https://blog.spacehey.com/pepperjonie
— 1 Comment— 3 KudosPinned
Category: Friends
i use this space to talk about my days! typically i am venting though, which can be total buzzkill . sometimes the posts gets traction, they usually dont. both i do not mind because i am just trying to share my thoughts. but know im not proud of these blogs. nor am i bragging about how miserable i can be . ive been told before im really good at guilt-tripping , but that is never my intention! i ha... » Continue Reading
— 2 Comments— 2 Kudos
Category: Quiz/Survey
almost 2 years ago i took an online love language quiz for a school assignment . here were my results today i took this same quiz again! cause i felt like it. here are the results » Continue Reading
Category: Blogging
i was rereading my past blogs and unless its about me talking about a certain subject its all just ventslop. i had to delete a few because its literally all the same layout "tch .. this thing happened .. and. Its been happening for a while... im never going to change.. and im so lonely.. and i want a boyfriend... and i hate people.......... life is so unfair!!!!!" thats basically what im saying bu... » Continue Reading
— 3 Comments— 6 Kudos
Category: Life
i dont know how many times ive tried to hate someone . i cant Hate people . i mean i do hate one person but im better off just Not Caring about her. UGH i do not want to care about anyone i cant stand it its so fucking painful . because no one cares as much as i do . i get angry seeing certain people i know with others . online and irl! cause im over here expecting a conversation of some sort , ... » Continue Reading
Category: Life
there are people in my life who are going to choose someone over me and i have to accept that . i have to be okay with people talking to others who aren’t me. it hurts like crazy, especially since im lonely half the time, but that’s just how life works . i think it’s selfish of me to assume that i would be someone’s first choice. people’ve always talked to others prior to me in a day..and i have t... » Continue Reading
— 1 Comment— 2 Kudos
Category: Life
for the past 4 years people have called me gay . and i dont blame them!! i talk about how girls make me blush and stuff because they do , but i blush easily .... and it doesnt have to be romantical yknow . butstill i do not blame them. its just. its kinda annoying though . they said i "dress gay" which made no sense . would it be wrong to say this had me feeling pretty little uncomfortable?? i mea... » Continue Reading
— 1 Comment— 2 Kudos
Category: Life
apparently every single person ive met online refuse to assume this , but i am black! i am african american . darker than everyone in this house actually!!! yes i am . despite this people irl have always loved to say that i "act white" and im not really sure what exactly they mean by that . how am i "acting white" . how would i "act black"? i mean at this point i should be able to "act purple" or ... » Continue Reading
— 1 Comment— 6 Kudos
Category: Life
i love LOOKING at BOYS from AFAR and YEARNING for a RELATIONSHIP of SOME SORT (leaning towards platonic) . this also applies to girls + other but i am mainly talking about boys i love boys oh boys yay boys yay..!! ive found these 2 boys super cute for a while at my school hehe . ive talked to them a few times about random stuff which was hard because i do not talk to boys irl Ohm y goodness...heh... » Continue Reading
— 2 Kudos
Category: Blogging
that blog talking about how hard it is to make friends . is like the most attention ive ever gotten online . and now i have like 40 friends . Uh maybe this life aint for me tugs shirt nervously but seriously tho im shocked (but relieved) to see im not theonly one who has dealt with that issue.. but i personally never put in the effort on fixing it so thats on me ;; ive been called awkward and crin... » Continue Reading
Category: Romance and Relationships
i’ve known my ex for like i think 6 years now . great guy but i’m unfortunately just now realizing that. like i got slapped with reality now that everything i once had is gone . but despite this we always end up meeting again . i feel pleased calling him my best friend , but sometimes it infuriates me . especially with everyone saying “you can do better” everytime i brought him up. but whatever . ... » Continue Reading
— 1 Comment— 2 Kudos
Category: Life
for some reason i’m so biased towards who i want to talk to . which is so stupid because my lonely ass should be grateful someone could have the audacity to talk to me! this is 10x stupider because i complain when people talk to people who aren’t meOh my god whatever this isn’t the point . the point is i’m too forgiving . and maybe i’m desperate or whatever but i can’t help but forgive people i’ve... » Continue Reading
— 2 Kudos
Category: Life
someone who i thought hated my guts walked up to me today and said hi at dismissal. turns out she didn’t hate me. i mean she never said that, but i assumed. she told me how someone told her about me and my ex at the mall. she said it wasn’t her business , but i assumed otherwise. i made all these assumptions about 1 interaction that she wasnt even involved with . thats all im good at and i Hate It... » Continue Reading
Report User
