outcast

every single time i play a game where there are other people in it no one talks to me and i really dont understand why. its like everyone knows who i am and so they refuse to associate with me because of my past! which is understandable im not the greatest but wtf!!! im always getting ignored!!! yet again everyone online already has their friend groups. even in real life! it feels like if i were to walk up to anyone id get attacked with tomatoes 💔

pretty much everytime i do somehow make a friend, we talk for a little (a little more if im lucky) and then we never talk again so i unfriend them. ive grown a bad habit of unfriending people if we dont talk a lot which is proobably why i dont have a lot of online friends anymore .Gulp. in my defense i did try to socialize but i was getting dry responses so i just take it personal and ghost them. typing that out makes me realize i should really Stop doing that!

this blog lowkey sucks because im always trying to make friends on roblox since it feels like i cant do so anywhere else online. but this is also a problem i have in real life! maybe i talk quietly? mic problems online? idkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk i suck at thissssss