i think i'm entering my hyper feminine era... i wanna wear more girly clothes... i was browsing depop and saw some cute himekaji/lolita inspired pieces and i've decided, that's how i wanna dress! i want to wear cute dresses and bows and accessorize and look girly and cute! i want to feel like a princess :3 it's gonna take a while to acquire a full himekaji wardrobe, and i don't think i'm gonna 100... » Continue Reading
these r important. • perfection isn't attainable; just keep trying every day 2 be the best person u can be • the intrusive thoughts/ doubting voices in your head r simply white noise ; ignore them to attain comfort • if u live every day like it's ur last, u don't have 2 be so anxious about the future as u r now • continue finding meaning in the little things » Continue Reading
i spontaneously attempted a wolfcut today at home (it came out horribly ) but i decided i kind of wanted to try the scene hair since i always wanted it as a kid (and tbh i lowkey feel like a scene kid at heart sometimes), and ended up doing my makeup and stuff t » Continue Reading
i went to my first edm fest/rave event back in december, my ex and i spent nye 2021 at countdown and it was uber fun :) it literally felt like wonderland in there with all the colorful light shows and installations and rides! the music totally sucked u in, especially while dancing! it was just awesum anyways because of that great experience i decided to go to project glow fest, another insomniac ... » Continue Reading
ever since i broke up with my boyfriend i've slowly started realizing something: it's okay to be selfish. actually, it's a good thing. i'm realizing that this is my life and that i come first, so i will do the things that make me feel happy even if it may upset others or make them uncomfortable. i can steer my life in the direction i want. i feel a lot more confident/secure in myself and being abl... » Continue Reading
and i don't mean in an unhealthy way. i want to be with someone who is fascinated by me, who is interested in the things i do, my hobbies/side projects/etc., who actively promotes/encourages the stuff i make/enjoy, who "online stalks" me to see wat i'm up to cuz he likes my content... someone who views me as this very curious and elusive being and who genuinely wants to dote on me and shit, someon... » Continue Reading
how hard it must be to love someone who is so pathetically sad and empty inside. the beginning stages when they hardly know you are easy but as things get deeper they also get darker and it gets harder to hide those messed up parts of you from them. it's not you and you didn't choose to be depressed but you have to go through it anyways and most people just don't have the energy or patience to put... » Continue Reading