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Category: Life
I watched this very interesting video about creativity and boredom, and it got me thinking on something tangential. I've been feeling bored of the music I listen to for a while now, and I get easily bored of new music I find too. It feels like an endless cycle of me trying to find new songs to listen to, until I get bored of them and look for my next fix. It's exhausting and frustrating. » Continue Reading
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Category: Life
It's so difficult to be myself when I live with my parents. Especially with dad. He always has an opinion on anything, and it's usually a negative one. He does help me when I ask, and even when I don't ask sometimes, but it's so exhausting to live with him. I prefer it more to live away from my parents, I feel like I like them more when we chat over video call or messages. » Continue Reading
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Category: Jobs, Work, Careers
Today was my first day working from home and it was..... Bleh. For some context: the company I was hired at has a blended style of work where we go to the office 2 days/week, and the other 3 days are from home. As I had expected, it was difficult for others to ask me to do things cause I'm inexperienced and they'd need to hop on a call w/ me to explain what they wanted me to do (or worse, they'd n... » Continue Reading
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Category: Jobs, Work, Careers
I arrived early again. I'm sleepy and not really looking forward to leaving at 6:30pm. But what can you do. I hope that once I've been assigned some tasks I'll feel better? I should also go see if I can make tea in the kitchen... If they have black tea... And milk... And sugar.. » Continue Reading
Category: Life
I'm sorry. I'm sorry I'm annoying. I'm sorry I'm a bother. I get if you don't want anything to do with me. It's for the best. I should not exist anyway, right? It'll be better for the both of us in the end. » Continue Reading
Category: Jobs, Work, Careers
Everyone is pretentious, always finding ways to benefit from others, always expects everyone else to bend over backwards for their work. I hate it so much. I don't want to become a slave for some company. » Continue Reading
Category: Life
I went to do a house viewing today. It isn't a very clean or nice house, but it's in a nice neighborhood. It's next to a nice park. » Continue Reading
Category: School, College, University
As I'm progressing more into my final year of university, I can't help but wonder if I'll actually make it. I'm struggling so much. » Continue Reading
Category: Life
It's so hard to do anything. Cooking a meal. Cleaning. Going to university. Studying in general. I wish someone would praise me and tell me I am doing well, whenever I do something difficult. I hadn't been to uni since last Friday, even though I should have gone this Monday. The thought of being among people was so overwhelming, that I didn't go. This morning I almost didn't go either, but I forc... » Continue Reading
Category: School, College, University
What it says on the title. I just want to enjoy the Halloween festivities, but I can't because I have two university deadlines right after Halloween, both of which are killing me with how much shit I need to do. » Continue Reading
Category: Life
Since summer is almost over, I thought I would write down my overall feelings for how it went. It was not great. June was fine for the most part, I made a big thing that I hadn't made before, which made me happy. But I also knew I was avoiding other things that I should have been doing. The biggest thing that made it bad was the project I had to resubmit in mid-August, and the amount of work I had... » Continue Reading
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