"Endlessly Pondering "
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The first and obviously the worst. I remember being so enthralled in your lingo and your own personal brand of dork. I remember being so happy to have someone who liked me as much as I liked them. I remember the long telephone conversations the risky texts. The mean nicknames and the special rated videos you showed to your friends. The funny way you would act when bringing up other friends to me. ... » Continue Reading
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Sweet heart is the term you used all those years ago. The soft warm glow of embers loom in this worn out torch I hold onto. I stopped carrying it long ago but the smoldering has ceased the ashes slowly falling towards the ground. This long forgotten inner static has been silenced by the distance. The laughter and moments forever written into the fabric of the story we had made for ourselves. The f... » Continue Reading
Category: Blogging
Dear Mr. H, I don't ever think I will get used to seeing you with someone else. I think in my mind I just see you as you were and no amount of having someone else on your arm will matter. You are still the charming conniving man I once knew. I remember all the times we would lay side by side out of breath. I remember the moments of anger and jealousy. I remember the goofy smiles and the deep talk... » Continue Reading
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I created this world for myself with trinkets and treasures. Love and Laughter are abundant. Good days and bad days are the same to me. Because the bad I face is nowhere near the level of chaos that is the world today. Rain and weather just happen to me. The Shows I replay over and over to feel the light within me. The music I sing on loop in my brain mindlessly. Rent free internet content for day... » Continue Reading
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How do I possibly show everything inside me to someone else? How does this constant fear overcome me in the worst of moments? Am I to keep painting the mask for everyone and muster up a false sense of optimism? I'd like to think I am not alone and that others are feeling this sense of impending doom. Is it the horrors of real life or am I just driving myself into this dark place. I've been in dark... » Continue Reading
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