Hellscape

I created this world for myself with trinkets and treasures. Love and Laughter are abundant. Good days and bad days are the same to me. Because the bad I face is nowhere near the level of chaos that is the world today. Rain and weather just happen to me. The Shows I replay over and over to feel the light within me. The music I sing on loop in my brain mindlessly. Rent free internet content for days. I have a wide scope of knowledge of things that others might think isn't important. What can I say? I was always attracted to the weird nonsense I enjoy. I have grown into who I am. I have caused a lot of damage in peoples lives and my own. Reminding myself that no matter what I have done that I am who I am now because of it. I had to do what I did to get to where I am now. The whole world I built for myself is beautiful. I just have so much more to me than what I am right now. I can and will do better in everything I do. Trying harder to the person I want to be. Struggling through all the inner demons I hold inside myself. I fall into a deep slumber in the darkness fighting these moments of pain and hit repeat. I wake to my beautiful world and follow my routine of being me and working alone. I meet people all the time from everywhere. I try to learn more about other beautiful worlds. I love hearing the stories of the Hellscape we all share here. The wonderfully tragic way we all struggle to be alive and keep the most important things close to us. So much ugliness and just out right absurdities that cause me to wonder what even is going on. I can't believe some of the things on the news but then I find myself online taking in the light of others. Having so much happen in my lifetime has taught me one thing about everything going on. We need to open up our eyes around us and realize the games being played out there. I find myself just as anxious as the rest of my age group. We all have had tons of trauma from wars to the crime all around us. We watch the leaders doing their best to persuade the angry working class the promises their ideals to each side. We see the overall disgusting acts of anger and unlawful acts between others. We see all now that our phones always there. We see everything from the disgusting acts to the best heartwarming wholesome content. A little bit of everything? All the time. i can speak for myself alone on how social media has changed us all. It was Myspace when I was younger where I would post these and now that I can revive this I will be adding more and more to the tales of Hellscape. Feel free to share your beautiful stories or your own creepy tales. I want to share a piece of me. A voice inside me that made me write. It's kind of nice. Please be kind as I am not by any means a poet or a writer. My grammar may be off I may speak a certain way I may have stories you find uncomfortable. I may be cringe (AF) but I do what I do. I would like to begin and end this Account on a good note. I will be behind my own mask. I appreciate the little mystery behind this and will keep my thoughts on here. :)