Done this before, but I believe since it’s been a long time I think I should remake my Looking For Friends post. I think the last time I did this was when I was 14 (I’m not really sure) I do know that I was dealing with heavy loneliness back then, now I’m okay and working on my social anxiety and anxiety in general :3 Anyways, I’m REALLY into Homestuck right now and still like Object Shows (I’m f... » Continue Reading
I’m so done with this body, I hate it so much and how feminine it is. I don’t want to have hips that are wide and I definitely don’t want a period. My period has done nothing but fuck up my mental health. I don’t care about what my gender expression is, what I truly care about is how I don’t feel safe and how I also feel like my entire body is going against me. It just gets worse every single day ... » Continue Reading
Today was good I guess, boys are so mean though and I hate it so much because it’s hard for me to not give a fuck about what they say to me or say about me. I wanna kill myself because of it, really I have more reasons to wanting to kill myself other then that though. I just want Friday to pass already so the stress of tomorrow can continue tomorrow instead of now. I have a C in health like alwa... » Continue Reading
Got all my school work done today :D I have a C in health still and I believe another C in English but overall I think my grades are fine, I do know that my dad would be disappointed in me though. I think I’m gonna update my profile layout a bit more to make it more cluttered because that’s how I like it >:3 My art has improved since last school year when I was a freshman, I still am making mista... » Continue Reading
MY WI-FI HASN"T BEEN WORKING AND I HATTTTTTE IT SO MUCH, ALL I WANNA DO IS PLAY ROBLOX, AND WATCH TIKTOKS AND YOUTUBE VIDEOS. AHHHHH, I WANNA CHAT WITH SOMEONE RIGHT NOW BUT IDK WHO AND IM BAD AT STARTING CONVERSATIONS WITH PEOPLE. imma talk about something different now that's been on my mind, what does the " I saw the tv glow" trend talking about because I'm not sure I understand it. » Continue Reading
I swear I keep procrastinating whenever I don't want to, it's hard to get out of the habit and I hate how my brain works because of it. I've started to do something this week and I feel a bit better because of it even though I know it's hurtful in reality. I'm meant to be some health work right now and I'm having a hard time to get it done, I got it started at school but I need to fully finish it... » Continue Reading
I was gonna post a internet diary yesterday but I forgot :p I hate using the SpaceHay website so I’m trying to get the mobile version but my dad has to agree so I could have it. It kinda scares me because a big part of me says he gonna find out about what I post and he’s gonna ground me for it. But again, I know what I’m doing on here and I know the dangers of sharing personal information online ... » Continue Reading
I wish I could lose my hearing, people are always too loud or too quiet and it hurts my brain and gets me irritated. This morning I was eating breakfast and I could’ve heard my brother chewing and I just wanted to yell at him to shut up and eat without any noise. For a while I been having problems in class where more people are there, they just don’t know how to shut up. At the school I go to the ... » Continue Reading
Guessing the Internet Diary is always gonna be posted on a weekend because of school :p I WAS KARKAT FOR HALLOWEEN AND IM SO HAPPY ABOUT IT, ALSO FOR ANYONE INTERESSTED IN EPIC THE MUSICAL THE VENGEANCE SAGA SOUNDS SO GREAT AND I LOVED SIX HUNDRED STRIKE :D I'm going to get the Karkat plush which makes me happy since I finally will have something to remind me that I was into Homestuck. I wanna get... » Continue Reading
I noticed a pattern whenever I’m online on the internet, I’m always associating myself with a fictional character. The association between me and that character always makes me think I’m them. Right at this moment the character I’m associating myself with is Eridan from Homestuck. It’s hard to not feel like I’m them, just a couple weeks (or maybe month ago) I felt like I was Sollux. I don’t even ... » Continue Reading