Something is keeping me up at night, and once again, it’s my worries. The thought of taking on more responsibilities is weighing on me more than it should. I’m scared of growing up, but at the same time, I want to break free from here, from this place that feels like it’s holding me back. I’m exhausted from being treated like a child but constantly expected to act my age. It’s like I’m stuck betwe... » Continue Reading
I’m eating Buldak right now, but it doesn’t feel the same. It doesn’t taste the same. Back then, the carbonara flavor used to be my favorite. I’d eat it without hesitation and sometimes pairing it with Ruffles for that perfect combination of creamy, spicy, and crunchy. Even when I had just the carbonara or cheese flavor by itself, like the cheese flavor I’m having now, it was still something I cou... » Continue Reading
I’m finally posting another blog here. It’s the new year, and here I am, typing this from my bed, finding yet another excuse to avoid cleaning my room. At first, I thought about switching accounts because this one has started to feel a bit negative—definitely not what I originally intended. I created this space to be a source of joy, to release dopamine, but over time it’s turned into a place for ... » Continue Reading
Today didn’t feel like Christmas at all. The rain poured down relentlessly, its cold, rhythmic patter filling the spaces where joy should have been. The streets were eerily quiet, devoid of the usual Christmas chaos. No kids stood outside our porch to collect their pamasko , their laughter and anticipation swallowed by the gray ski » Continue Reading
basically the continuation of this except i'm too lazy to change the format and i have so much shit to say but not enough words to describe how i'm feeling right now..! erm don't read if eating disorders trigger u November 24, 2024 It’s been a week since I last sat d » Continue Reading
In the quiet of the night, I cry, Words spill from lips that no one replies. I’ve begged, I’ve whispered, I’ve asked, I’ve tried, But the heavens above stay dark and wide. They tell me, "Just call for His name and pray" But it feels like a game I don’t know how to play. Hoping for answers that will never arrive, Wishing for solace in a world I can't survive. I’ve been asking for peac... » Continue Reading
The new month is here, and with it, I've shed The weight of a longing that once filled my head. November whispers softly, a chill in the air, I’ve left my love for you no longer a snare. I’ve wandered the echoes of memories past, Each heartbeat a ghost, a shadow I cast. Yet here in the silence, I've chosen to part, From dreams that once nestled so close t » Continue Reading
My relationship with my mother has long been estranged, Words like splinters and glances exchanged, Lost in the silence of things left rather unsaid, Wounds that we carried too often misread. Years drifted by in an unspoken truce, Bounded by blood and yet divided by use Of memories blurred, love worn, and frayed. Two souls adrift, in the shadows we stayed. » Continue Reading
i guess there's no use to rekindle, a friendship that died long ago. a bond once bright, now brittle, fading like candles after a storm's blow. we shared secrets, laughter, and tears; whispered stories throughout the night. but time’s swift hands pulled us to years, where memories blur and lose their light. perhaps we grew in different ways, our paths diverged a silent split, and what we » Continue Reading
October 3, 2024 Lately, I feel like I’m losing my grip on reality, and it’s all because of these crushes that seem to be coming out of nowhere. It’s strange—sometimes I don’t even know if they’re really crushes. On one hand, it feels like I just admire them—the way they carry themselves, their confidence, or the things they’re passionate about. I’m drawn to their energy, but not necessarily in a r... » Continue Reading