january 1, 2025 : unpacking my own clutter

I’m finally posting another blog here. It’s the new year, and here I am, typing this from my bed, finding yet another excuse to avoid cleaning my room. At first, I thought about switching accounts because this one has started to feel a bit negative—definitely not what I originally intended. I created this space to be a source of joy, to release dopamine, but over time it’s turned into a place for venting which has caused me some mental clutterbut then I realized it would be a shame to abandon my past posts. They reflect a lot about my journey and growth, and it’s interesting to see how much my mindset has changed over time. So, I’ve decided to stick with this account after all.

This year, I’m thinking of posting individual blogs as my diary entries whenever I feel inspired. No more daily posts like last year, where I felt pressured to write every day. The constant need to write became a bit of a burnout and I realized I was mostly using it as a space to vent which was draining. So this year, I’ll only write when the mood strikes me. I still want to write every day, though, so I’ve gotten myself a Kinbor planner. I get to write short recaps of my day with it. The entries will be private for now but I might share some of them here if I feel comfortable doing so.

I've also decided to transform this account into a kind of archive—a place to look back on my thoughts and memories. I’ve started an Instagram account for more casual keepsakes—kind of like a digital junk drawer where I can throw ideas, photos, and random thoughts that don't quite fit my usual style. Honestly, I’m still figuring out the exact purpose of that account but I’m excited to see how it develops over time. 

On a more personal note, I’ve been thinking a lot about my goals for this year. My top priority is to become a better version of myself. I know I can’t just flick a switch and let go of the negativity that still lingers inside me but I’m hoping to make progress, no matter how slow. I realize I’ve been pretty hard on myself but I’m trying to be kinder now. I’m clearly a work in progress but I’m learning to give myself some grace. This year, it’s less about expecting perfection and more about embracing small and positive changes. 

So, here's to a new year, new reflections, and hopefully, a new mindset. It’s going to be a journey, but I’m ready to take it one step at a time. And maybe, just maybe, I’ll clean my room soon too.