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Category: Writing and Poetry
how do i tell my mom i've been hurt far long enough before she'd ever know how do i tell her i was touched in parts of me when i was too young to understand that the darkness in my room feels like the monster is beneath me that i've been kissed before reading my first big book how can i cry in front of her knowing it would break her because my secrets are far deep into my well how do i express my... » Continue Reading
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Category: Writing and Poetry
Whenever I feel the starvation ache my whole body It feels like a punishment for all the things I've done For all the things I didn't do Whenever I see my plate on the table All i feel is disgust and pain Forcing myself to eat one more bite. Just so I can survive And breathe one more day » Continue Reading
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Category: Writing and Poetry
LA is so ugly, yet beautiful we pretend to love our community, as we gossip and hate our own. we are a bunch of poor people with big hearts but we are also a bunch of rich people filled with greed we are neglected, yet we are supported we are seen, but we aren't heard We are the city of Angels who extend our wings, yet can't reach the sky We are the city of dreamers who dream fiercely, but can't ... » Continue Reading
Category: Writing and Poetry
you're like the spring in my summer a pretty rose that blooms in the heat of the day burning its petals away yet, you're more beautiful than ever don't go anywhere please don't leave you're exactly where you're supposed to be can't you see? you're the brightest thing that life has given me i know this isn't your season, or your time, but what if i make your days brighter? what if i bring the cold ... » Continue Reading
Category: Writing and Poetry
everything will always be deeper than what it seems in the way someone calls your name, in the way someone holds their spoon, in the way someone is sitting alone, in the way someone holds your hand. the list could go on. we love to think deeply about the world, about other people, but somehow we seem to forget about ourselves. we refuse to look into our deepest parts. for we are not ready to un... » Continue Reading
Category: Writing and Poetry
And the darkness began, as i swim through the depths of the winds i see myself in the pits of the dark hole. can't tell who i'm running from or what, but i know i'll be far away before they catch me. and as i am found it'll be too late, for the world and for me. as the days approach, it'll be hard to know who to trust, and where to go but one thing i'm sure of i am never alone, i fee » Continue Reading
Category: Writing and Poetry
Where is the world right now? I didn't think i'd be alone Where will you take me? This isn't the place i call home You got me thinking, "maybe it's for the best" but i don't know what's best Where will i go? Where will I turn? I'm lost, im alone Why is this place so dark? I don't want to be here Where is my mom? Where's my sister? Why am I not home? Maybe one day i'll come back But will they let » Continue Reading
Category: Writing and Poetry
And under the moonlight I stand beside you Where the city lights shine so bright and cruel I wish for your darkness I yearn for your cold As your breeze shivers me with goosebumps All I can do is stare right through your eyes Where is the soul I look for? Is the love still there? Have your eyes casted a spell on me once again? I'm tired of all this trapped air I can't breathe And it hurts more ea... » Continue Reading
Category: Life
Dear Best Friend, I hope you know that you're my one reason I could be myself i love and adore you. You're the only one who could make me laugh and smile. Because of you i love myself better. dancing with you is so freeing. it makes everything bad disappear when i'm with you. And loving you was the most precious » Continue Reading
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Category: Writing and Poetry
it feels like im alone in this room the voices in my head stop talking its so eerily quiet do you still think im strange? when i stop talking midway it feels like somebody else takes over my body i am not there it feels like im sleeping with my eyes open but at least i feel peace do you still think im strange? my breath is slower my eyes wide that it mortifies but im not here to scare you im here » Continue Reading
Category: Life
my purpose keeps drifting away. i am losing touch of my purpose. im stuck in this loop hole where the same thing happens everyday. im not learning. im not creating. im not being of use. i want to make a change. i want to learn. i want to continue living. not existing. i am not a robot. i am a human. a sensitive human being who loves nature. i want to make a change. and be different. i want to lear... » Continue Reading
Category: Writing and Poetry
my mind is clean, crystal clear, open like the never ending waters. for the longest i felt like i was drowning, i felt heavy, hopeless, small, helpless i thought the water was my enemy but it turns out to be my friend i dont feel like drowning anymore i dont feel smothered anymore i feel free im floating im at peace the fear of drowning is still there but im at peace i escaped the deep blue sea i ... » Continue Reading
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