I wish I were a bit softer. I wish I weren't so impulsive. I wish I had more of a classically ambitious drive within me. I wish I cared more about the things that mattered and less about what has already passed. I wish I didn't see my parents' faults. I wish I could see my own with clarity and understanding. I wish I had more control. I wish I cared less about control (who doesn't?). I wish I were... » Continue Reading
With an increasing frequency, I endure periods in which I profusely question myself. Most commonly I question (more accurately: second-guess) my habits, my vices, my thinking patterns, or my actions. It is strange to separate yourself from attributes that could make up "you" in search of a more succinct commonality, and it is probably futile. I refuse to believe that my anxious tendencies or my in... » Continue Reading
It was my friend Ari's 23rd birthday today so we went to Cheesecake Factory to celebrate. I was early (the last time I was early to something was my birth ba-dum-tss ). I sat alone and wrote their birthday note. I reflected on how my community changed so drastically over the past five years. When I went home for Christmas my junior year of college I felt an immense need to please my parents. I fo... » Continue Reading
Hear ye, hear ye: As season of love is quickly coming upon us, I felt it time to share my most recent yearning playlist. xoxo, l8ybug "Mood Indigo - Remastered 1998" by Frank Sinatra "Stop and Think It Over" by Female Species "Today It's You" by Triste Janero "A Message to Pretty" by » Continue Reading
Just a list of songs that I have been liking lately. Some with note-able lyrics (as noted...). I'd love recommendations for anything based off the following list. "Stoner" by Drug Cabin - "Nomenclature, my second nature" "Phantoms and Friends" by Old Man Canyon "Porcelain" by Red Hot Chili Peppers "Pie in the Sky" by Post Animals "Dorien Kregg" » Continue Reading
I chose to indulge my nostalgic side tonight by going through old letters. After reading a couple from my Dad, I became appreciative that I was raised by very sensitive parents. Sensitive could be bad at times in strange ways. Their worry or expressiveness often influenced both my decisions and disposition (to whatever degree you can gain disposition from nurture vs nature... idk), but I think it ... » Continue Reading
I wasn't going to do any sort of "introductory" post, not even a hi or hello, but I changed my mind I guess. It felt a bit too intimidating to just go straight into posts about my life. I have been enjoying writing on here throughout my days and using the Diary option, but I hesitate to post them. One thing about me is I am going to have a thing or two to say throughout the day, but let me not shi... » Continue Reading